My friend, Kate Varsava, Halifax Birthworker, Wombyn’s Summit Leader and Musician prepares for her own birth in the company of her beloved friends, yogis and fellow birthworkers. I was so inspired by her tale of being honoured with care, love and beauty that I asked to share her Instagram post with you.
“Yesterday my house filled up. Yesterday I was filled up.
From my bath, filled with warm water, rose petals, and lavender oil, where I was receiving a massage from the loving maiden hands of my sweet friend‘s daughter, I could hear the joyful chatter of wimyn gathering and organizing themselves. I was adorned with a gorgeous fresh flower crown made by my sister, had my hair fixed up, put on my precious jewels…when I emerged from my room, drawn by singing voices, I found my kitchen full of food, my living room full of flowers and ladies (and baby daddy), and my whole house full of beautiful, buzzing, nurturing energy, beaming faces, radiant beings.
I was passed a cup of Guatemalan cacao, sat on a thrown, and treated like a queen. Tender recollections of how we each met, supportive expressions of a belief in me to enter the role of mother, a showering of love to wash me in confidence and fill my heart beyond measure. A feast of the most nourishing foods, a dance party, gifts of herbs and plants and salves, potions, candles, and sacred objects…it was the most dreamy day I could have imagined.
I feel like the luckiest womyn in the world to have community to hold me so, to have a coven sister to organize everyone (I love you so much marapanacci), to now have a freezer full of meals for my postpartum, fresh flowers in every room, art to decorate my birth room, and a heart so full full full ?? Thank you, thank you, thank you to all you gorgeous wimyn and all you ladies sans IG ??
I truly believe that if all wimyn were treated this way by loving community: held up, made to feel strong, cared for, and trusted through their pregnancies and motherhood (our whole lives actually), the world would change, humanity would change, we would all be better off, healthier, and happier.”
The reason being surmised is that the frosty weather, time off over the holidays and the urge to merge just seems to take us when we’re not working so hard at our day jobs. Perhaps we get a little free babysitting thrown into the mix, with extended family, and the next thing we know, we’re due in late August or September.
Our blogs are focused this month on “The Pill” and also “Where Do Babies Come From.” You may be surprised that there’s a new thing or two to learn since grade 10 health class. We aim to bring you the latest truths that often exploit the party line on health and sexuality.
Jeff and I are getting ready to head over to Cancun early February to spend some time seaside with our son Jordan. He’s flying down to meet us from Ottawa and we’re excited to take him snorkeling in Puerto Morelos, the second largest barrier reef in the world. We also want to show him the spawning centre for sea turtles on Isla Mujeres.
Cozumel has a handmade chocolate factory that we love and the hot chili chocolate is mindblowing. We will rent a ragtop beetle from another era … okay from when I was a kid and tour the island. There’s a restaurant with mind-blowing ceviche and you can wiggle your toes in the sand while eating and watching the waves crash on the shore. I love to swim there after a late lunch.
Our hope is that you’re all keeping warm, or perhaps escaping to a hotter spot, too, this Winter. Either way, if you’re due in September, we’ll know that you created your own heat wherever you are.
Recently re-fitting out my first book, The Path To Cure, as a new audio book for a podcast was a ginormous 18 month long project. Jeff asked me to write a brand new intro to every chapter being revealed to a brand new audience weekly. As a result, I had to relive every one of my words written, wrought with so much pain and suffering from the past. For this month’s newsletter theme on Cancer, I chose to decorate the banner with the passion flower instead of the daffodil. Perhaps below, and in our blogs contained herein, you’ll understand the dynamic reason for this.
The truth is that what you’re destined to be is buried like a passionflower seed in your loins and to fully actuate your passion means first finding your individual seed, discerning what it means, and then providing the conditions ripe for it to grow. Think about what you’ve engaged with in life where you truly lose all track of time. If you still can’t figure it out, pick up Boni Lonsburry’s book, The Map to a Responsive Universe Where Dreams Really Do Come True.
Boni acknowledges that while not everyone knows what they want to be, she correctly cites that everyone knows how they want to feel. By holding the charge of feeling and tossing over board your beliefs that you’re value is not great enough to receive such abundance, you can create the circumstances ripe for what you feel ordained to be. Your passionflower will begin to self-actuate and seemingly random opportunities will start to crystallize.
Cancer grows in an environment devoid of heat (resonant sex), oxygen (principled recreation) and love (true desire function). The opposite is the recipe for a fully orgasmic life!
Sugar and chocolate are suppressive and a function of an oral block. She just can’t get the sweet passion out of life! Eating sugar and chocolate is really a sad attempt to garner the sweetness from life externally instead of through primary drives internally. You’re not wholly expressing your feelings to yourself, or others in your life, or fully actualizing your love function (your passion) through to a full fruition (the fruit itself). You have to have juicy sex with the whole of your world.
A primary drive as per full actualization is feeling so connected to your love function that you make no excuses to create what you love confidently and share it with the world unabashedly. This God-imbued talent or gift is hidden in your generative capacity and as you go through Heilkunst treatment, it will get harder and harder to suppress it. Your passion flower can not be suppressed long-term without symptoms.
Don’t be surprised if you suddenly start doodling while on the phone, or magically waking up with whole poems written in your head, or feel driven to teach others how to ferment their own foods, sew baby’s clothing and sell them, coach a fellow mom at her birth, or suddenly pick up a musical instrument, dance, sing, teach, research or become an astronaut. These are just examples I’m thinking of from specific patients I’ve served.
Perhaps this year, you’re poised to find the man or woman of your dreams to have the kind of spiritual and romantic sex that you’ve always dreamed of. Don’t ever settle for anything less, as the Cancer state of mind will reduce your bar, sublimating your true desire function into watching television, eating non-resonant junk foods, doing things for family members to the exclusion of yourself more out of obligation than love or working that tortuous 9-5 desk job in that 10 x 12 cubicle with the daily 3 hour commute.
Cancer is a state of mind defined as the disease of resignation. You’ll hear her say things like, “Well, if I don’t do it, no one else will. And certainly no one can do it as well as me.” They’re exhausted, burnt out. When you listen to them, your internal pathetic meter will be activated. I know, as I used to provoke this response in others. Due to my lack of inner guidance system, folks would happily step up to take over and tell me precisely their agenda and how I’d want to come along.
Cancer loves a false authority which is why I gravitated to false patriarchal constructs like Judaism and also worked for the Government. If someone asked me how I was, I put my child in front of me like a mascot for my un-lived life. The truth was, I didn’t really know. I was just that pathetic an I ended up with an inch and a half round tumour in my left breast as an emblem of how I was devoid of self-nurturing and a real sense of my self.
Let us know if you feel you’re suffering the same and we’ll provide you with the therapeutic keys to harness your own passion flower. We all deserve to wholly self-actualize. I should know … and, oh baby, I do. It’s why I stepped up onto “The Path to Cure.”
Most folks in committed relationships feel that conflict is a bad thing. The shadow side of the self is often suppressed with tactics like “anger management” or palliated with the “power of positive thinking.” The subconscious will always leverage the shadow content for your “not so viewing pleasure” if you choose to keep it falsely couched behind an over active intellect. The intellect thrives falsely anchored in the past or projected into the future and true health can be achieved as long as this is the pattern. Relationships demand connection to our true feelings and it is best if we know what they are before negative conflict arises.
By offering yourself as a more explored whole to your partner, you risk less destabilization and demoralization on both sides. If you choose to use the the relationship as the primary vehicle for raising negative content from the subconscious, you risk destroying your relationship with your partner and over time, with yourself. You’ve heard how an abused man or women will enter into a similar relationship a second time. When the conflict arises, you often get taken by the thrust of stored negative emotions that leave you mystified and trapped in a “he says, she says” mode of negative communication. Really, no one ever benefits from a battle of wills. This primal loop of negativity just loops tirelessly around and around.
Most art and film, for example, reveals our suppressed feelings “in the now” that allow us to see who we are in the light of day. It will even expose our bad bits in a very positive medium. The movie The Matrix is a very good example how art can render just how unconscious we’ve become to the forces of evil that puppet us. In order to convert the shadow side of our being, and live outside our own Matrix, we need to shed some light on this nether aspect of the self. Our grief, fear, anger and guilt are not going anywhere, and as you may already suspect, they do despise positive thinking and will sabotage it constantly. If we commit to harnessing them correctly, however, we can know a greater self-powered consciousness than ever before. By first embracing what is, in the moment, our emotions will convert, offering themselves up as a fount of creativity. Safe expression of our feelings can become a vehicle to our greater creativity and ultimate healthy connectivity with others.
The parts of your relationships that you despise, or even abhor, is a good indication of what you need to wrestle with in your own shadow side. That emotion, then needs expression. Using safe modalities such as a punching bag, Judo, art therapy, journaling, and poetry can allow you to safely see what is hidden at the level of your sub-conscious. You can do this first, on your own, safely illuminating negative emotions positively. Shedding light on your dark side raises your knowledge of yourself, in a more positive light, ultimately building self-confidence. This allows the relationship to benefit from your conversion of the negative into the positive. No individual finds anything more sexy than a partner who already lives a fully examined life. By the time you get to the commitment stage, you are already starting most of your sentences with, “I feel …” breeding confidence and self-esteem even when the emotions are of a negative breed. This full engagement with your feelings, relieves you of the negative matrix, allowing you to embrace positive conflict in all aspects of your life. It begins with the self and your marriage can only benefit from it.
Most folks don’t know this but if a child is potty trained under duress, it can cause a whole host of mental/emotional issues later on. Holding the breath, contacting muscles, unexplainable fears and terrors later on are some of the negative effects of forced potty training. It is best if you can allow your child to self-initiate this process naturally as much as possible. I knew an awesome caregiver who allowed all the little boys in her care to pee outside or in a big aluminum juice can set in the middle of the kitchen. Most of them would be running around freely, naked from the waist down and they loved the sound their urine stream would make on the sides of the juice can. She would praise them lovingly for a joy that they already owned for their accomplishment.
Kids don’t moralize that “pee or poo” is considered dirty, bad or awful. In fact they don’t have the maturity of the ego to understand why something that was naturally inside their body, part of them, is suddenly deemed yucky just because it is now in a diaper, in the tub or on the floor. The best parents I know don’t shove their limited way of looking at the world onto their babes prematurely. Kids work on the model of “ownership” and success so it is best if you can make this a win-win process for them as it will pay off in the long run.
If you get down on your hands and knees and imagine what it would be like to be a sixth of your present size and what it would be like to fall into the toilet, potentially not being able to get out, you’ll be off to the store to buy a suitable potty. Babes do best if they are permitted to wander and explore at their own pace around their own potty. Allow them to follow both parents into the washroom when you have to go, too. Special books with images of little kids making “poo poo” or “pee pee” in the potty can have a wonderful effect on cultivating the idea in your child. Allow them to choose whether or not the book resonates with them, as this is a safe indication of whether or not they are ready for the idea. If they seem inclined to sit on the potty while reading to themselves or while watching a favorite movie, provide them with praise and loving attentions such as, “What a big boy you are! Good job, buddy!” It is a mighty big decision for a child to separate from their own urine or stool. We rarely understand the magnitude of this decision. A consistent approach between the parents and caregivers is crucial.
If things are not going well and you suspect your caregiver may be forcing the issue, you will notice potty training anxiety such as:
being scared of the flush of the toilet when you use it.
Feeling pushed, or having been punished for a previous potty attempt will be illustrated as shame.
A history of painful bowel movements from constipation.
holding of breath / tightening of muscles.
I was shocked and upset to see my own son spontaneous stop using the potty after a DPTP (Diptheria, Polio, Tetanus, and Pertussis) shot. He would go behind a large plant in the hall screaming out, “Don’t look at me!” He would clench every muscle in his body, which seemed very counter-productive to the aim, as he attempted to “hold on” to his excrement. Although he was wearing a pull-up and encouraged to “let go” using any means that pleased him, it was the beginning of a nightmare so extreme that he was hospitalized 7 times for constipation, once being put under general anaesthetic to have the impacted stool manually removed. Later my son was labelled as “ADD” and then “Autistic.” Thankfully, we were able to resolve the underlying cause with a systematic approach called Heilkunst medicine. At the time of writing this, he is a thriving 21 year old man without an ounce of residue from this nightmare we lived when he was just a babe.
Potty training anxiety summary
general tips about healthy potty training
follow the timing and rhythm of the child (they usually start showing an interest anywhere between 18 months and 30 years; tends to be on the earlier side for girls); Will also vary with different personality types of children
allow the child to feel “ownership” about the process – have their own potty (rather than the large scary toilet).
Special toys or books that are only used when sitting on the potty
Encourage feeling of pride in accomplishment (“big boy / girl”)
Potential causes of anxiety about toilet training:
Scared of the flush of the toilet
Feeling pushed, or having been punished for a previous potty attempt
Inconsistency from the parent or caregivers
If the child has a history of painful bowel movements from constipation
explore this with an orgonomic lens
parents who need the child to be “pleasing” and follow expectations of potty training
holding of breath / tightening of muscles
nat-m in parents / family ambient
example of a couple who lost a previous baby, and were still carrying the grief into the next pregnancy
learning how to use various muscles to have a bowel movement is a process and takes time, related to overall health of child and successfully moving through each stage of development without other blockages or interferences (emotions, miasms, etc.)
Healthy relationships are a function of Love, commitment and a mature consciousness It can be tough to enter into our imaginations to look into the future with regards to the dynamics of the relationship with clear, honest eyes. Most folks know, unequivocally, at the altar whether or not they are making a mistake and due to social pressures, will go through with it anyway while the pulse races and the mind screams in protest. Pre-Marriage Counselling can be the most intelligent and Love-imbued activity you can engage with on behalf of yourself in order to shed a conscious light on the myths and misconceptions of a prospective union with another.
A popular but mistaken belief is that the main factors contributing to a long marriage are luck and love; instead, commitment and companionship actually play a more important role. In fact, one has to be committed to being their own intimate companion first! What this means, simply, is that I can only be as intimately connected to another as I am already committed to myself and my own feelings first. For example, when you are feeling anxious, ask yourself how you are really feeling? Sink down, below the anxiety into the pit of your stomach. What is the feeling? Generally, it is a deep seated and more deeply rooted fear. If you are able to connect to “the feeling” the crux of the anxiety, and name it out loud, watch the shifts that occur in your body as the breath deepens and you relax. If you are able to execute these connections to yourself, first, then you simply can offer this same capacity to connect to yourself to your beloved. It actual fact, I can only connect to another human being to the degree that I am already connected to all aspects of myself; especially my deeper feelings.
Conflict is not unusual or abnormal in a relationship; actually it can be the most illuminating tool to know the self if used constructively. Freud called this phenomenon “transference.” If I am displaying blame, criticism, or a false desire to fix someone else, what I am actually attempting to leverage from my subconscious is my fear, grief, anger, guilt and resentment by projecting onto the other person. If I can train myself to read these projections before they are projected inappropriately onto my beloved, I convert lead into gold! This is the secret behind Paracelus’ Alchemy. Alternatively, if someone chooses to live an unconscious life, they will keep projecting the same content over and over again based on deep seated karmic patterns and harbored diseases that keep one sadly puppeted by their unconscious; or neurotic and psychotic material. Once we learn to hold the charge of a deeper inner consciousness with the realization that I’m about to project it onto someone else, I can illuminate the unconscious into consciousness. Pre-marriage counselling, by an illuminated and trusted mentor can help us to face the content we harbor, poised to projected onto the tableau of an innocent marriage. For example, if I notice I’m jealous, for example, rather than anxiously blaming or accusing my beloved, I can thoughtfully engage in the root cause which is my utter insecurity and fear that I may be abandoned. In fact, in the case of jealousy, it is typically a sub-conscious projection of your little kid-fears that your are not worth being wholly committed to that was illustrated to you in early childhood by Mommy or Daddy. Most of this content has been harbored before the tender age of three.
Principled counselling is only to be used to avoid a negative situation like an imminent divorce; rather than a positive goal of consciously building a healthy, fulfilling relationship. All negative self-perceptions have the capacity to be transmuted into a benefit for yourself and subsequently the relationship. It takes courage to sink into the muck and mire of your deepest fears and hatred. Once down in the content of the demiurge at your core, you realize that as you clear the brambles with your sword of truth, it is just the whining and little kid fears of your early childhood still holding you prey. If you can pick up this side of yourself, the abandoned toddler, and purvey her/him out of the darkness with compassion and love, you will see that the positive goal of consciously building a healthy, fulfilling relationship, actually begins in your own loins! If you can rescue yourself first, you don’t project your insecurities and demands to be rescued by your partner day after day. This is the most liberating, mature and whole way of being in relationship. Can you imagine what our relationships could look like if we are both already rescued and whole; our salvation completely bagged and intact? There would be no end to the love, abundance and creativity we could explore.
Another myth is that “mature” or “smart” couples don’t need outside help to solve any conflicts or issues. Self-intelligence does not necessarily come from having a PHd. or from living a long time. Wisdom or as the Greeks spouted, “Know thyself” is a function of courage, the true capacity to face all your feelings in an honest, forthright, way and allowing your fears to convert into hope, hate into love, jealousy into faith, and grief into compassion and tenderness. The intellect is not “smart” or “mature,” in fact it is a child barely out of diapers, living out of the past or projected into the future. It is a moralizing junky that only knows how to compartmentalize, or analyze, trying to shove every feeling into filing drawers of the mind too small and contracted to fit them. Feelings just don’t fit the intellectual construct and will spew onto the outer landscape, generally projected wrongly onto others. It is a hot-flash of unconscious emotion. When we walk it down into the nether part of our being, face our truer base emotions, they will naturally convert into right thinking, informed and imbued with heat, enthusiasm and orgastic love. This is a more righteous definition for the state of maturity bourn out of a deep self-knowledge. This way of being connected to he self is sexy beyond words! Being the mature, realized, conscious being that you are naturally destroys the myths and misconceptions of the victim, prey-like self.
One misconception with far reaching implications is that having children will bring a couple closer together or patch up existing problems. What fears, anger, grief and resentment we can’t raise into consciousness out of love, actually becomes the prison projected onto the next generation. What we bear from our loins carries the same limitations, or alternatively, the love and hope we’ve consciously become. Our babes are a mirror of our limitations or the triumphs of our celebrated lives. The myths and misconceptions of pre-marriage counselling are that it can’t help. That is true if I’m hell-bent on self-destruction. Sadly, folks poised on remaining unconscious, perilously lost in the darkness, puppeted by unconscious acts that keep them, their partners and their off-spring trapped in karmic and disease patterns will perpetuate out of law; the law of resonance.
Appropriate pre-marriage counselling with a an inspirational mentor trained in the principles of Character Analysis and Orgone Therapies (enabling to access the pre-verbal ages from pre-womb to about 3 or 4 years where most patterning started) can help the individuals seeking coupledom as a function of their personal evolution be the most illuminating journey imaginable. This is not for the faint of heart and few will own the courage to plunge into these depths, however, a mentor who has journeyed the same route before you, fully conscious, trained and illuminated can be a God-send. It is time for us to cure ourselves, our relationships, our marriages and then only foster our children out of this deep abiding knowledge and love. A whole, healthy, sovereign and autonomous self will create the opposite qualities in a partner. Work on yourself first, or in conjunction with your relationship, as individual wholeness will burn off the predisposition for dysfunction and co-dependency.
I recall back in the 3rd year of medical school at the Hahnemann College for Heilkunst this discussion being raised in class. We talked about how diseases of a microbiological nature are naturally declining. How many of your peers or family members have suffering recently from Cholera or Scarlet Fever? Even Cancer is on a 25% lessing trajectory and with less that 3% therapeutic efficacy in conventional medicine, this certainly is not due to Surgery, Chemotherapy or Radiation.
Autism will become the scourge of our modern times. It is a condition of a lack of a healthy ontic (ontological, individuality or sense of one’s self) and on the biological level, physical and emotional armouring. There is a reason that Autism is coming up on the tail end of Cancer, a disease so prevalent in the 60’s and 70’s. That is because many of these babes are being born to professional mothers who’ve been subjected not only to a whole host of environmental toxicity, vaccines, mercury fillings and expectations to be as intellectually adept by matching their male counterparts a full 50% in global boardrooms.
However, this all is coming at a cost. Our Autistic children are being born to mothers bourn out of of the state of mind of cancer. They’re mostly armoured in their natural functioning and unfoldment, they rescue others to the exclusion of themselves and suffering feelings of the un-lived life. This is the definition for the state of mind of Cancer and they are prey to the education system and the corporate infrastructure needing a false authority to tell them what to do. I know, because they attempt to put me on the same pedestal.
“Supplemental Feeding” by Edwin & Kelly Tofslie https://flic.kr/p/mA8wb
No, I’m not saying that stay at home Moms are preferable to working Moms for raising our babies. The intellect will attempt to categorize what I’m saying here with big wad of guilt and a knee jerk reflective desire to distill the whole phenomenon down to the simplest terms. It doesn’t work like that. We can’t fix this phenomenon without the proper rumination or consideration. It’s precisely THIS way of intellectualizing that is part of the problem. The intellect despises phenomenology as it prefers unidimensional thinking.
What I am saying is that we’re transitioning more and more into intellectual automatons which is leaving our wombs and bubba-kins bereft of feeling, love, grace, ease, naturalness, surrender and the capacity for true wisdom properly ensouled and incarnated in our physical bodies. We’ve lost much of our inherent ataraxia and it is impacting on the health of our children.
Our babes are being ravaged as a side-line project, an intellectual side-bar, because most people seems to “think” that they should spawn at least one child. It is part of the social construct, an offshoot of our armoured beliefs, it is something we just do. Isn’t it?! We’ve lost much of the modus operandi to want to wholly realize a love so profound with our parter that we’re overflowing with generosity and feeling by extending this to another human being for the whole of their childhood and beyond. We’re having children and then resenting parenting them so we give them to others to parent and educate them for us.
“Amelia and Reese Terrorizing the Village by Donnie Ray Jones https://flic.kr/p/qqEUX1
I once served a female Lawyer who clearly never loved her husband in that luscious, full throttle kind of orgastic way, and had really used him as a donor to spawn a son and daughter. Her hate for him and her circumstances was palatable. Her focus was on fixing her children in a loveless marriage. She even slept with the kids and never him! Can you imagine?! It was sad and pathetic and frustrating for all involved, including me, as the practitioner.
You can have the greatest regimen and throw remedies at a situation like that, but until the individual chooses love and resonance, that broken wheel is never going to turn out right, and neither are the kids. I’ve written another article on why love and intimacy are critical for the health and well-being of our children, regardless of whether they’re in the spectrum or not here.
We’re, sadly, seeing giving birth more as an intellectual milestone of achieving just one more more rung in the accomplishment factory of our driven natures through false expectations. Add to that state of mind, or lack thereof, our Genetics, toxic loads in the way of GMO’s, vaccines, DNA complications, circumcision, mental anguish, and intellectual robotics and you have a dynamic recipe for creating a child suffering ASD issues; vaccinated or not!
We’ve forgotten how to simply be, postured more as widgets to false authority and the expectations of others than on fulfilling our own true desire programs through love and a full embodied sense of our individual selves, which can at times include love for another human being, but not necessarily. I know plenty of women, and men too, who ignore their artistic or musical abilities for a law or medical degree instead, but try a side order of parent-hood with disastrous consequences. We diminish the wisdom in the arts (or other more personal fulfillments) and herald the capacity to sort intellectually in the most mechanistic and materialistic of ways.
“Tears” by Thomas Leuthard https://flic.kr/p/dkvRJ9
Years ago, I served a writer Mom of two autistic boys (a rare case of non-vaxxed children) who made herself go to University for Pharmacy, working dispensing pills while wearing her Birkenstocks. She was a full-fledged granola Momma, working a socially expected paradigm that was totally incongruent with her values. She wasn’t even close enough to the cash register to guide patients to the more resonant Homeopathic Medicines that she loved and used at home; her true personal preference as she hated Big Pharma and pill pushing Doctors. She lived from a state of utter incongruence and she had the symptoms to prove it. She wrote poetry on her off-hours while totally exhausted from 12 hour shifts. She despised her life and believed that she must settle for her present existence in order to clothe and feed her sons. Her husband was an artist too.
By systematically procreating, without an ensouled thought for the outcome of this choice we starve our babes of a becoming functionally whole. This is why, as a function of evolution, we’re seeing less diseases of the physical body like Cholera and more conditions related to our armoured beliefs, minds, spirit devoid of a true embodied wisdom. Spiritual diseases like Autism, Schizophrenia and drug abuse (recreational and pharmaceuticals) are on the rise. The trajectory indicates that ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorders) will become epidemic. At the time of this writing 1 in 45 children will be diagnosed as Autistic.
I know this phenomenon to be true, I suffered this dynamic myself and I wrote a book, entitled, “The Path To Cure; The Whole Art of Healing Autism” for the same reasons I’ve cited above. In the book, I cite my own son’s exodus from the Autism Spectrum due to Heilkunst treatment, but not to the exclusion of my former gestures of feeling prey to the expectations of others. I was a broken, bereft automaton educated by a traditional University and working in public enterprise that did not give a rat’s hiney whether I ever had an individual thought in my head or not.
I was a Financial Advisor working for government with a dental plan and a pension, an armoured cog in a very big unfeeling wheel. I was a widget, a contrivance of cloned cyborgs, working in 8 X 12 blue felt cubicles next to other cyborgs. I hated it and my armoured hate produced a replicate of my intellectual stimming, a babe, who mimicked my chronic fears and anxieties devoid of speech with chronic rocking back and forth with little eye contact. Are you starting to feel the connection? Jordan had no way of being cured until I addressed the lack of connection to my true essential self … the false ego had to go!
“Who’s the parent here?” There is childish behaviour by the adults going on around them, resulting in the individual’s feeling unprotected and vulnerable to invasive influences. In particular, the child is likely to be responding to their mother’s situation, feelings, and disrupted functioning. There is an experience of being helpless to cope with their situation, and it indicates that their emotional needs are not being met. They feel like they and their needs are being relegated to the back burner, and that they are being pushed aside by their family (mother in particular). It undermines their immune system and their ability to take care of themselves. It arises when the adults are more concerned about their own immediate comforts and convenience than they are about the welfare of the child, or when they operate with beliefs that teach the child that the child or they don’t have what it takes for the child to be perfectly safe and healthy.
“Out there.” They are an autistic or schizophrenic who is incapable of dealing with the demands of life. They live in constant fearfulness and overwhelm experiences. It is a “re-evaluation” of their life purpose, in which the essence processes the last several lives while not being in a position where they have to take care of themselves or anything else. Whatever family and/or genetic processes were involved in the precipitation of the disorder were part of the destiny design.
“Feeling-phobia.” They were so devastatingly but super-subtly trained to avoid awareness of the emotions as a child that it has resulted in a breakdown of the physical system for doing so. They come from a severely denial-dominated and or repressive dysfunctional family in which any contact with what people were really feeling would have resulted in a calamitous collapse of the whole family.
Here’s a video based on Wilhelm Reich’s book, “Children Of The Future” that may explain the gist of this article an how we produce, and alternatively prevent, armouring and gestures of Autism more clearly:
In summation, the microbiological diseases were designed to furnish the physical and etheric bodies with enough challenges to help along their incarnate capacities for this next phase of evolution. We’re at the precipice of fully integrating the self, our ontic organization (as per Rudolf Steiner), or individuality. Think iPhone, iPad, iMovie, etc. Perhaps you’ll also find it interesting that Autistic children generally demand an iEducation based on individual mentorship rather than conforming to the expectation of a one size fits all educational approach most of us were subjected to.
“Start ’em Young” by JL! https://flic.kr/p/37iZdB
We used to all more or less do the same thing in the post industrial age, working in offices, wearing the same suits. Now we’re striving for autonomy and sovereignty. The challenge, now, becomes ontological and the condition most associated with this task is Autism. It is said that we’re all in the spectrum to a degree. The genetic miasms most associated with Autism are Syphilis and Lyme which, as mentioned prior follows on the heels of Cancer as per timeline treatment under the Heilkunst umbrella of protocol.
If you’re looking for additional resources, regarding this whole phenomenon, I wrote a second book on this topic entitled, “Unfolding The Essential Self; From Rage to Orgastic Potency.” It is my Postgraduate Thesis and also a culmination of my own personal functional purpose. I’ve spent the latter 20 years working to unravel the mess that society, my diseases, armouring and my unwitting familial construct hemmed me into. Perhaps you too are ready to take the blue pill and step out of The Matrix too.
Trinity: Neo… nobody has ever done this before.
Neo: I know. That’s why it’s going to work.
Reclaiming Our Health by John Robbins: http://www.amazon.com/Reclaiming-Our-Health-Exploding-Embracing/dp/0915811804
CDC survey: 1 in 45 children have autism: http://www.upi.com/Health_News/2015/11/13/CDC-survey-1-in-45-children-have-autism/4131447426941/
Thinking, Feeling and Willing. The Threefold Human Being. Sophia Institute: http://www.sophiainstitute.us/blog/thinking-feeling-and-willing-the-threefold-human-being
The Study of Man by Rudolf Steiner: http://wn.rsarchive.org/Lectures/GA293/English/RSP1966/StuMan_index.html
Messages From the Body by Michael J., Lincoln: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XjBIDGCY7yE
Children Of The Future By Wilhelm Reich: http://www.amazon.com/Children-Future-Prevention-Sexual-Pathology/dp/0374518467
Unfolding The Essential Self; From Rage to Orgastic Potency by Allyson McQuinn: http://arcanum.ca/unfolding
Click on the image to view the article “The Love You Deserve” by The Good Men Project
I had a woman express openly at the recent Womyn’s Summit I attended that her partner, “just doesn’t get her; that he’s just so opposite.”
Our chosen lovers can feel like dissonant others over time if we don’t develop a deep, loving and abiding relationship with our own nether being. Our gut will haunt us openly with our own harboured fears of abandonment if we’re in fact abandoning ourselves.
We will think that it is the fault of the other, however, he’s only operating out of resonance. Most folks don’t know that their outer ambient is a direct reflection of their inner milieux.
If we’re broadcasting a radio station of personal disregard, the only individuals that can pick that up and tune into us in that way are those with the same radio frequency on their dial.
To resolve the underlying cause means taking responsibility ourselves for what is being mirrored back to us. Once that schism is addressed then we can actually change our relationship with ourselves to a deep inner regard, then based on the laws of resonance we will see that behaviour mirrored directly back to us.
This is not a superficial changing of one’s mind, though, a bunch of affirmations on our bedroom mirror or some intellectual gymnastics. This is the deep work of those facing beliefs coming from timeline traumas, Miasmic (inherited diseases), Chthonic (fear and ignorance) and Ideogenic (Spiritual beliefs) sources.
Out the other side, though, you will own the pure grace you seek. After that work is done, you’ll feel such fulfilment, you’ll barely noticed what others are up to, except that they keep bestowing gifts of love and regard on you! I know as I was once living the belief that “he just doesn’t get me.”
It was a cop out, an excuse, for not facing what I knew was mine. Now, I have the love I deserve mirrored back to me and I’m able to wholly receive it and mirror it back to my beloved. All the dissonance simply melted away with the utter reverence I’m now able to hold for my self.
It is not right to mutilate the genitals of any human being. It is a ruinous act designed to dull sensation in the male phallus so that he’s rendered more compliant by the standards set by religiosity and false authority. There are no studies that can confirm that a circumcised male produces greater cleanliness. These are myths that are ripe to be snipped from the landscape of our modern consciousness.
In this present day, even Judaism denounces the practice of Brit Milahs (ritual circumcision), given that eventually certain rituals run out of justification. Heck, even women can now be ordained as rabbis. If you hear a Jew, or anyone else, stating that ritual circumcision is justified on the basis of tradition, perhaps point out that the following are also “traditions” and were considered crimes, some punishable by death, according to the Torah (the first 5 books shared by the Christian Bible):
Cheating on your husband. (Lev. 20:10).
Fornicating – if you’re female. (Deut 22:21).
Homosexuality (Lev. 20:13).
Blasphemy (Lev. 24:16)
Insulting one’s parents. (Exod. 21:17)
Disobeying one’s parents. (Deut 21:18-21
Slavery (Exod 21:1-11) (Deut. 15:12-18)
Animal and human sacrifices. (Lev. 4:3, 4:23, 4:32, 5:7, 5:15; Judges 11:20, 11:33)
Divorce for men only. (Deut 24:1)
Female subservience to men including obedience to every order and no right to refuse sex. (Genesis 3:16)
Evolution is a function of human development and our basic human rights, not to cause harm, are inherent to our dominion under God; especially if it involves our physical, mental, and spiritual bodies. As educated and enlightened beings, it is our right to defend our perfect babies against medical or religious interventions if we feel that they are in contraindication to their health and well-being. In a deep state of reference for what is holy (and whole) in my child, I exercise my full liberty to protect both my son and daughter from interventions that are not congruent to their health or well-being. In fact, if you look at the top 10 Values of Judaism, you will realize that circumcision violates 90% of them:
Why Circumcision violates this value
V’ahavta l’rayaha kamokha
Love of others
If you love your baby, you don’t torture and mutilate his genitals.
It is not just or responsible to strap a baby down and mutilate his sex organs.
It is not kind or compassionate to strap a baby down and mutilate his sex organs.
Love of learning
It’s time we learn to stop mutilating babies. It’s a no-brainer.
It is not welcoming to strap a newborn baby down and mutilate his sex organs.
Peace/harmony in home/family
It does not ensure/ help peace and harmony when you strap a baby down and torture him. He will never trust you again and he will remember.
Perfecting the world
We’d be more perfect if we stopped torturing and mutilating little boy’s sex organs. God made us perfect. It is blasphemy to think we know better.
Sanctity of life
Babies have died during circumcision, therefore it violates the sanctity of life.
Sanctity of language
It is not modest to strap a baby down naked in front of people.
Even the famed medieval rabbi, Moses Maimonides, stated that ritual circumcision was probably designed to dull the desire in a man for masturbation and sexual intercourse. He states,
Part III, Chapter 49, Page 609:
“Similarly with regard to circumcision, one of the reasons for it is, in my opinion, the wish to bring about a decrease in sexual intercourse and a weakening of the organ in question, so that this activity be diminished and the organ be in as quiet a state as possible. It has been thought that circumcision perfects what is defective congenitally. This gave the possibility to everyone to raise an objection and to say: How can natural things be defective so that they need to be perfected from outside, all the more because we know how useful the foreskin is for that member? In fact this commandment has not been prescribed with a view to perfecting what is defective congenitally, but to perfecting what is defective morally. The bodily pain caused to that member is the real purpose of circumcision. None of the activities necessary for the preservation of the individual is harmed thereby, nor is procreation rendered impossible, but violent concupiscence and lust that goes beyond what is needed are diminished. The fact that circumcision weakens the faculty of sexual excitement and sometimes perhaps diminishes the pleasure is indubitable. For if at birth this member has been made to bleed and has had its covering taken away from it, it must indubitably be weakened. The Sages, may their memory be blessed, have explicitly stated: It is hard for a woman with whom an uncircumcised man has had sexual intercourse to separate from him. In my opinion this is the strongest of the reasons for circumcision.”
“This class of commandments also includes the prohibition against mutilating the sexual organs of all the males of animals, which is based on the principle of righteous statutes and judgments, I mean the principle of keeping the mean in all matters; sexual intercourse should neither be excessively indulged, as we have mentioned, nor wholly abolished. Did He not command and say: Be fruitful and multiply? Accordingly this organ is weakened by means of circumcision, but not extirpated through excision. What is natural is left according to nature, but measures are taken against excess. He that is wounded in the stones or hath his privy member cut off is forbidden to marry a woman of Israel, for such cohabitation would be perverted and aimless. Such a marriage would likewise be a stumbling block for the woman and for him who seeks her out. This is very clear. Source: THE GUIDE TO THE PERPLEXED, Maimonides, Moses, translated by Shlomo Pines. (University of Chicago, 1963) The whole basis for the bris is actually halachically forbidden; which means that it is clearly against the fundamentals of Jewish Law. It no longer should inform our behaviours towards our healthy, intact, sons whether we identify as Jewish or not. It is our job to preserve the sanctity of each human life, especially for those who trust us not to betray that trust. As a mother who feels inordinate guilt for allowing the bris to take place on my own son, in my own home, I repent deeply for this travesty upon my beautiful son. Even though, I fought against the rabbi and my in-laws, knowing instinctively, that strapping my son down to a board to have his genitals cut went against what I felt was right, I was weak in the face of their pressure. I asked that given his prematurity that the procedure be delayed for 6 weeks after birth and that he be brought to me immediately after to sooth and nurse him. If I’d only had the knowledge that Halaka (Jewish Law) dictates that since there is a danger to the babe’s life, medically hazardous procedures are strictly forbidden taking precedence over all else. My son had been born 2 months premature, I would have had plenty of justification in light of the information researched for this article. “It is a violation of Torah commandments to physically assault or harm another person (Exodus 21:18-27). Yet that is exactly what circumcision is! Thus, it is against the most fundamental concept of Jewish law.” Can you imagine that some Jews barbarously object to pain medication by the physician; but can you imagine 4 needles with anaesthetic injected into your genitals isn’t painless? Also, coating the babe’s lips in wine is no justification for this inhuman act. I feel guilty and angry at myself for allowing the coercion to take place over 21 years ago. I was a shut down, needy, woman who was silently mistaken for wanting to be a dutiful tribal member. My daughter had a very civilized baby naming ceremony. We had chocolate cake, we wrote poems in her honour. It was a ceremony orchestrated by women for the promise of a baby who’d one day become a woman. My son deserved the same ease, and promise for grace and full orgastic potency; not a shock that caused him to writhe in mistrust and terror against straps that restricted his freedom of movement. When we clear the event on many timelines, of the males we serve, their penis will break out with an angry rash. No wonder! Some people will say that if you’re against circumcision, you’re anti-semitic. Far from it. In fact, this is a ridiculous notion. I studied for almost 10 years to become a Jew, as a result, my children are Jewish, I’m married to a Jew and I identify with the persecution of any people who’ve suffered at the hands of any false authority. I’ve been treated with nothing but grace and respect by members of my chosen Jewish tribe, however, in pursuit of higher education where I was taught to question everything, I question this. Part of my own enlightenment and conscious maturity means that I reject many of the barbarous practices illustrated in the Torah. For example if 90% of African Americans chose to smoke and I was against smoking, it doesn’t mean that I’m against black people. It means that I’m against the behaviour, not the race. I am not remotely racist as a result. As one fellow enlightened Jew wrote, “Jews are smart. We are 1/3 of 1% of the population, yet we hold 33% of the Nobel prizes. This means that we are smart enough to understand that sexually mutilating our boys’ genitals is NOT acceptable.” It is time to forgive ourselves and move on. My hope is that any future grandsons of mine remain intact, breaking the cycle of pain and sexual compromise. I will do my best to educate my daughter and my son.”
I recall, once, about 20 years ago a sensation at the bottom of my spine.What started as a generalized ill ease at my core, suddenly burst forth into what felt like a black cloak over my head trying to suffocate me.I couldn’t breath, my eyes springing wide in terror.I watched myself flail in horror as my heart thumped wildly in my chest, my mouth went dry and I sputtered and wheezed clinging to what felt were my last breaths.In that moment I just knew that I was going to die.
As my pores poured forth a clammy, rank sweat, I smelled the beguiling essence of death on my skin.I anxiously perceived that this was the end and my headstone flashed before my eyes, folks dressed in black appeared to be mourning my departure and a very insignificant obituary appeared in the back of the Sunday paper.It was all there like a movie playing sequentially before my dread-filled eyes.
When I felt the black shroud threaten to close my wind pipe forever, I felt my body (and finally my mind) simply surrender.It was a like the apex of the crescendo of terror finally peaked and I felt a far off floating feeling come to retrieve my beleaguered soul.Was I swooning like an 18th century Jane Austen character?As I crumbled to the ground, my knees hitting the tarmac of my apathy, I just let go.A beacon of calm over took me and I let go to my inevitable demise as I hit the floor. My funeral scene went black.
As my consciousness slowly re-booted, I could sense muzzy thoughts trickling back in. While still prone on the floor, I felt that there was no more effecting my broken will required here, no need for all those lists that defined a hobbled success for me as a unfulfilled slave in a system that required my compliance. In that moment, I realized that I’d become a doormat, a lackey in life’s machine of work, cooking for my husband, paying taxes and raising thankless kids.As a result, I realized deep down, I was knee-bumping (literally) terrified that this was all there was to my fractured life.
It was a moment that I will never forget.If I’d been a follower of Freud, and the descendants of his psychoanalytic society, he might say that I’d faced the death instinct with a certain aplomb and adroitness. Certainly, intellectually, it was clear that I’d hit up against the crux of my mortality. Any Psychotherapist with ink in his pen and a prescription pad would likely look at drugs to suppress this trip down the pipe of terror.Some anti- this or anti-that to thwart my clearly “chemically” imbalanced brain.Most patients of this model are happy if you just suppress and thwart their capacity to repeat this obvious “disorder” from gaining any patterned traction again.
However, I’m not a typical woman of the Freudian camp.If you simply shut down the predisposition for me to know the gnarly essence of myself, you short circuit the potential for empowerment.I wanted to own the reigns in my life, not be hobbled on the illusion of any drug. It is still my modus operandi.I’m no seemingly play now, pay later kind of gal.I’m wiredto know the etiological roots of my suffering; to suss out the cause and predisposition for my episodes of panic wrought with asphyxiation.Why was I being smothered? 1
When I began to study at the Hahnemann College for Heilkunst, I learned that Wilhelm Reich, once a favoured student of Freud’s, would cite that it was not death that I was actually instinctually scared of; it was life!My organism had never learned how to live, out of grace, pleasure and the orgasm function.If you want to re-read my panic attack story above, again, as if you’re reading a bit of erotica, you’ll see that if I was properly threaded, the function of the orgasm (big luscious expression of health and life) would actually follow the same biological path; tension, charge, discharge and then relaxation or realization. Panic attacks are a severe distortion into fight/flight of the biological norm for genital primacy and then true orgastic potency.If examined closely, in this vein, you’ll see that the gesture is in fact similar.
Most folks don’t even know that this biological function exists due to the fact that, just like I was, their stuck in genital primacy having clitoral climaxes or penile ejaculations which is really just an appetizer. My former Mentor, Steven Decker would cite that a climax is really just a “genital sneeze” isolated to the genitals necessary to training for the whole bodily event for the earth to move, the “grand mal seizure” version of true orgastic potency.My neurotic intellect producing the panic attacks would need to undergo a re-training to discharge the fear and terror trapped below my armouring through the orgasm function; through pleasure, not pain. This was a serious upgrade from talk therapy and prescriptions. 2
Just as a child needs their fever function to help train them up biologically to their immune function for when something serious comes along, adults who’re not properly strung through their healthy sexual functioning will suffer panic attacks and disorders of this nature as an attempt to discharge fear and terror. If not properly plumbed, the thwarted content will hit the armouring that causes the loop for panic to gain traction and momentum until the damn breaks causing symptoms like heart palpitations, sweaty palms, irrational thoughts and suffocation.The thwarted sexual expression is an attempt at the biological release of the damned up content below decks in your subconscious (nether man) at the core of your being clanging against your armouring and beliefs.The secret mantra will be, “I can’t let go, I can’t let go, I can’t let go.”
The essence that animates you just sneers out of tough love with the opposite gesture, “Do you want to bet?” And suddenly your biological damned up mechanism trips the lights fantastic and you’re suddenly careening wilding up the side of the panic roller coaster to the trippy peak with lips mouthing unspoken terrors with lips turning blue as you fall to your knees in the ultimate gesture of supplication.It is this hobbled curtsy of genuine genuflection in your swoon that is also attributed to the capacity for a healthy orgasm function.3
Reich wrote, in his book, “The Function Of The Orgasm; Sex-economic Problems of Biological Energy,” that, “I came to consider the instinct as nothing more than the “motor aspect of pleasure.”” When I first fell upon these words, I felt something transcendent take root in my thoughts with regards to my own panic attacks.Could it be that the answer to my issues did not have to have the temporary band-aid of yet another round of talk therapy and a prescription for drugs?Could it be that by retraining my system from suffering to pleasure, I could release the pent up suffocative content at my core?Did I feel I deserved to live this way?That, right there, turned out to be the bigger question in my de-armouring process. 4
I began to learn that talk therapy only has the capacity to access content post-cognition.This means that you have to have the recall to speak about your history to a point of memory to leverage the harboured dormant content. What is your armouring took place between birth and age 3 or 4. Did that mean you were biologically and psychologically screwed?What if there was another way to get at that content where I didn’t have to engage in yet more years of verbiage with therapists mostly sicker than I was as I’d spent years in therapy, partially paid for by the State, to no avail and was poorer on many levels for it.
At the onset of 1924, Reich published a series of papers on the idea of “orgastic potency,” and the capacity to release blocked emotions from the musculature, losing oneself uninhibited to the orgasm.This was the basic idea that Freud had come to call Reich’s “hobby horse,” or in German, “Steckenpferd.”Reich had argued that psychic health and the ability to love fully, oneself and others, depended on the capacity for the full discharge of the libido, or true orgastic potency, “Sexual release in the sex act must correspond to the excitement which leads up to it. It is not just to fuck … not the embrace in itself, not the intercourse. It is the real emotional experience of the loss of your ego, of your whole spiritual self.” 5
In that moment, I was dumbfounded, this was the answer that I sought.As I delved further into Reich’s other books, on cancer (also part of my former package of suffering, see footnote 1) and character analysis, I realized how and why the psychoanalytic community at the time became limited to talk therapy and prescriptions and why I chose to pursue a full out cure to my panic disorder and the myriad of my other sufferings I’d engendered over my lifetime.I have the system of Heilkunst, and it’s predecessors like Reich, to bow down to now in genuine gratitude and healthy supplication. As a result, I haven’t had a panic attack in over 20 years.
1For more on this, “The Path To Cure; The Whole Art of Healing,”Arcanum Acres Publishing, McQuinn, Allyson, 2004 found in Amazon or for the latest 2015 audio podcast