[This post is from the May 2019 newsletter – click here to read it.]
When a woman I’m treating tells me that she’s concerned about appearing selfish if she practices self-care, I think of the 2 inch tumor I once had in my left breast. My modus operandi was that as long as I maintained the outer form of expectation, I could avoid my deeper emotions and cleanly escape this thing called life.
Back those 25 years ago, I never took care of myself. I was a newlywed mother who cooked, worked in a government office, cleaned my home, and made something different every single night for dinner (with no exception). I was overweight, sad, and suffering chronic fatigue, psoriasis, chronic pain all through my body, and then came the tumor. The volume of my symptoms were incrementally going up.
Cancer is defined as the disease of resignation, feelings of the unlived life and rescuing others to the exclusion of oneself. You know what folks will say about someone who’s passed away from cancer? “Oh, they were so nice, everybody loved them!” and “They’d do absolutely anything for anyone, even take their shirt right off their back and give it you you!” They’re absolutely selfless folk. The tumor is an emblem of a misplaced self.
Now, I’m not saying that becoming whole doesn’t mean that you’re void of acts of kindness for others. I’m saying that you don’t enact this gesture to the exclusion of your own self-hood and ecology. Your full cup can runneth over only after it is first full. Gestures of self-care will extend to others on a case by case basis. Try asking yourself first, “Can I do this out of love?” or “Is my own cup full and do I have the bandwidth to extend myself and live the consequences?” or “Are folks taking more from me than I’m prepared to give right now?”
These twoarticles are crafted to illuminate what the Cancer Miasm is AND how to transcend this state of mind if you find yourself in its clutches. Remember, in some cases, you will need the law of cure, like cures like, ala Heilkunst to get you out of its midst if you’ve already engendered the state of mind into your physiology.
If you want to listen to the whole gnarly story of my own get out of the cancer matrix for FREE, here’s the link www.thepathtocure.com/bonus.
I used to suffer food cravings, too. After a day full of serving patients and my family, I used to finally sit down (well after the sun had gone down) and enjoy a morsel of dark chocolate. Often times, it was well beyond a morsel!
It was like a negative spiral as then I’d have trouble sleeping or be up a time or two to urinate in the night which did not help my feeling of being rested the next day. I was stuck in a loop of need without emotional fulfillment.
The bottom line was that the more I needed the chocolate, the less I felt rested. I was living to eat, not eating to live.
The Cancer state of mind actually craves chocolate. In fact, stay out of their way when they’re en route to their fix, as they’ll slay dragons bare handed to get it. Sound familiar?
The Cancer state of mind is one where you rescue others to the exclusion of self, are living the unlived life, and are feeling resigned that this is your fate from here on in. That was my story too. The chocolate gave me a tiny illusion, just for the moment that this wasn’t true.
It seemed like much more energy to resolve my plight outright than I had. I knew more fats would help, I also knew more tender acts of self-love and fulfillment were also key. But where to start?
That is when I took a dose of Carcinosin and Chocolatum and made a list of what I needed more of in my life. I went after “the feeling.” If I was going to do this thing called life, long-term, how would I imagine a better state of grace for myself?
Well the answer to this has spanned many blogs, a couple of books, and a decade. Give us a call as we’re happy to share the answers we found with you, verbally, based on your own struggles. It’s what we do for our patients, but not to the exclusion of having solved it for ourselves first. Are you ready?
We’re all trying to balance so much! Often times, it’s not just the business, home life and kids to keep organized, and on a schedule, often times we’re having to be responsible for the collective consciousness for the entire household. Consider how often you’re asked, “Ok, so what’s next?”. Or “You should have just asked me to do that and I would have gladly helped you out.”
So many women I serve, and some men too, will cite extreme exhaustion. Not only for the actual tasks they perform at the office or at home, but because they also feel like the CEO of operations. This unexpected job description often surprises us out of nowhere. Who put me in charge anyway? Where was that written? How do I exit this role without the whole damn ship sinking?
How did the job of knowing what’s next fall on me? I’d never asked my husband, “What’s next?” in over a dozen years of marriage. How is it that as a reasonably intelligent woman I always felt my corpus callosum log-jammed every time? Perhaps my lesson was to learn how to engage with my own instincts and activities, leaving intellectual management to other individuals. That, actually would make sense.
In those moments, I definitely know I could use help. The first thing would be to take the task-manager role off my shoulders. When was this bestowed on me? Please supply a two page answer single spaced while I dress this roast of bison and finish prepping the potatoes. Perhaps you’ve lived this too.
While the offer to help is, in itself, an act of generosity, it can annoy the living daylights out of a Mom in a Sepia state. How many CEO’s of multinational companies can think on the spot of the detailed activities to be executed by a worker who barges into his office while he’s on the phone and also in the midst of forecasting the budget for the next annum? You see it, right? It doesn’t happen. At the very least, you make an appointment or see a more junior manager. Perhaps your spouse might ask one of the kids. Ah, not a bad idea, a kid will always tell you precisely what to do to serve them.
I recall feeling totally burnt out in the early stages of my marriage. In fact, I had the feeling that if one more person asked me what they could do, I might run my laser eyes clear through their guts while launching enough swear words at them to burn off their eyebrows. They’d grow back, right?!
I once recall trying to prepare supper while nursing an infant on the breast, with a toddler pulling all the pots and pans out on the floor, stirring a pot of rice pasta with the phone in one ear speaking to the guy rescheduling to come service the dishwasher who I had stayed home all day waiting for. It was a Friday.
At that moment, my husband walks into the kitchen having just arrived home from the office, and wants to know what he can do. The first answer that popped up to the fore is, “no clue” and then, “isn’t it obvious?” or to silently turn back and offer a tear of frustration into the pasta. This gesture alone can create a ton of animosity and then spouses wonder why dinner conversation is a little stunted and the weekly sex is dwindling.
I spent years stuffing my feelings down and taking Sepia regularly until my breast finally swelled with a 1.5 inch tumour. Among this, and other dynamics, I’d say this phenomenon cost us the marriage. It wasn’t until these very same issues started to crop up in my second marriage that I began to “get it”. The whole family plumbed solutions to help relieve me of the burden of doer and decision-maker. At the time, I was running a household, half a business, part of the farm, a kids’ camp (in the summer), writing a book and doing postgraduate research. Brutal, I know!
The summation of this post is that we finally did solve it with some creative problem solving. It took a team effort, but you can read that article here.
Cancer is a having a predisposition for undischarged grief, feelings of rescuing others to the exclusion of self and the un-lived life. Their secret, hidden, agenda is that if I help rescue enough folks (children, spouse, friends etc.) eventually they’ll rescue me back. However, they become increasingly angry when this does not happen, as the codependency just perpetuates.
To solve it, outright, you need not just mop up the toxicity (tumors, cysts, t-bacilli cells) on the physical level, but also address the state of mind that created the conditions ripe for its “infectious” nature in the first place. This is why folks who’ve contracted cancer and have it removed with surgery, treated with radiation or chemo generally have a recurrence of the same disease matrix 3-4 years after.
If I open the pages of Michael J. Lincoln’s book, “Messages From The Body” and review the reasons for contracting Cancer, you will clearly see that the physical manifestation is only part of the story. In fact until you’ve addressed this state of mind, the “Cancer” hasn’t really gone anywhere:
Cancer – “Powerlessness-rage.” They feel overwhelmed and devastated, with a sense of intense emptiness in their life. There has been many years of inner conflict, guilt, hurt, grief, despair, resentment, confusion and/or tension surrounding their deepest personal issues. It is connected with feelings of hopelessness, inadequacy, helplessness and self-rejection. They see no possibility of relevance or effectiveness from the Cosmic realm. They have disharmonious attitudes towards parts of themselves that they don’t want to deal with.”
To learn more about this disease matrix, and how to be proactive for yourself and your children, click on this link to read more May 2017 Newsletter. Our goal is to prevent the incidence of this Spring Genetic Miasm in as many folks as possible.
When the kids were still at home, we had a couple of systems that worked well as we had two busy practices, both of us were doing postgraduate research and we had a farm to also run. Basic stuff had to get done, but I was unwilling to be the sacrificial lady lamb in the equation. Jeff, also, would not allow this to happen to me, either, so we developed some basic systems.
Every week we had a white board on the fridge and the four of us would divvy up the chores to be done that week, listed for each day. We also had laundry-folding parties where everyone would meet in the living room, the clean laundry spilt out of the baskets onto the floor and then everyone would help sort by pitching undies, shirts, pants etc. at each other until it all got distributed. Great hand-eye coordination and memory work with this one! Each person had their own basket to fold (or gather) their clean clothes into and then put them away in their drawers or closet.
If the kids needed help, they would ask as we buddied up when one child was smaller and more challenged with the task at hand, but they were generally part of the sorting party by the time they were 4 and running the washer and dryer by 12. Sometimes their clean clothes lived in that basket until they got to the bottom, but it had to be kept in their closet. It was their choice as long as it was “put away.”
The other thing that helped a lot is that we had a shared grocery/general shopping list app on our phones divided into categories like “market,” “grocery store” or “hardware store.” If stuff needed to get on the list, like ‘cheese’, the child had to use our phones to load it on there or it wouldn’t get bought. Over time, they both got better at spelling these items … but often either Jeff or I would be standing in the grocery aisle laughing ourselves silly as Jordan got good at writing items like, “monkey balls” or “penis pickles.”
When they were in their teens, they had the same shared list on their own phones and then when they drove, they also did the groceries. Yay! We helped to grow them into these shared roles from the time that they were little. They were also taught how to manage bills, make payments, and budget accordingly. Now, we’re showing them how to invest in ways that yield solid returns.
The idea was/is to make it fun, there was always some joking around, and the burden was never all on my shoulders to be the Queen-pin of our domestic operations. We also divvied up the cooking and everyone took a night or two preparing supper for the family. We ate a lot of the same things and our crock pot got a lot of use. Sundays, we’d get some music on, Adie would often bake (her Scottish shortbreads are to die for), I’d prepare one meal, Jeff another and Jordan would be designated sous chef or dishwasher. The key was that we worked together at all of it … including mucking out the stalls in the barn. It built a sense of teamwork and belonging. A dull knife and a carrot can keep a toddler busy for quite awhile!
In our practice, we see a lot of women chronically in a Sepia state (the careworn mother) or Cancer state of mind (rescuing others to the exclusion of self). It is important to activate the health and well-being of our essential selves so as not to default to this program often wrought by our fore-mothers. Trying to work full-time and/or homeschool and then also deal with all of the responsibilities of hearth and home (or farm) can start out as protracted stress and then become, over time, Sepia or Cancer states qualifying you for more aggressive treatments. Is it time to wake from your resignation?
Here’s the original article, by Lisa Wade, that this blog was inspired by ….
This month, we’re focused on helping you to understand, more deeply, the functional nature of a healing reaction. It is not a side effect, or symptoms of a chronic disease matrix, it tells a story of resolution and healing. It is the revealed inner anatomy for how, and why, you created the resonance for this physical suffering at the level of your consciousness in the first place! It’s the opportunity to know the nature of your disease pattern, the core etiology, so you don’t orchestrate the same act of beguiling oscillation twice.
I suffered the most amazing healing reactions when I first came to Heilkunst Medicine. They were so stellar, I wrote a whole book about them, “The Path To Cure” which you can listen to for FREE at pathtocure.com/bonus.
It is fair to say that I wasn’t half the woman that I was meant to be and so when I started to take the homeopathic remedies on the law of cure, like cures like, it was very much like the feeling of an elastic band snapping wildly back into form, a semblance of health and grace that I’d never been.
Every individual is downloaded with a blueprint for cure. DaVinci actually illustrated this best through his Vitruvian Man. If we’ve been weighed down with blockages to our cure with timeline traumas of a physical and emotional nature and a host of genetic miasms, not only is it difficult to self-actualize, but it can feel like you’re pushing a physical burden up a steep gravel incline. It’s tough to get a healthy purchase.
Since I’d been so far off track for so long, my own personal blueprint was in shambles. I’d been suffering symptoms of fibromyalgia, psoriasis, sinus infections, migraines and chronic fatigue. When I started Heilkunst treatment my life force reacted like we just hit all 10 Six Flags roller coaster theme parks. The ride was pretty wild.
My essential blueprint felt like it had a hidden agenda and was going to take my current physical and psychic diseased self to my healthy place as expediently as possible, “do not stop at Go and do not collect $200!” Clearly I was part of a secret agenda that I didn’t seem to know about and the roller coaster had left the station with me on it … numb and blindfolded. To say the least, it we quite destabilizing.
The problem was, it was like being whipsawed around the corners and over the hills. My own practitioner suggested that I use the olfactory method, as per Dr. Hahnemann the founder of Homeopathic principles, and just sniff my remedies in the bottle for a number of days and then in a couple of weeks, I could start taking them orally again. Dr. Hahnemann had to do the same with little kids, some elderly patients and those super sensitive, like me.
In my case, it also had to do with my lack of ontic (short for ontological organization) which is a fancy word used to refer to our sense of self, autonomy, sovereignty and discernment. Since I was so weak, physically and etherically (memory, creativity, resourcefulness, artistry) I’d never properly downloaded the sense of my own self or my true desire function (astral body). My “I” was in a state of carnage and mostly cobbled together with masking tape and some ideas of what others had expected of me.
I was so full of Cancer (breast tumor and migraines), Medorrhinum (Sinusitis) and Syphilis (insidious self-destructive tendencies and Fibromyalgia) that I could only guess at an essential self. I know that I was a very challenging patient, but I was scared of the power in those little bottles and paper remedies! However, in a matter of a few short months, something so primal, so juicy, so rarified, began to download in me after each disease matrix that we destroyed.
My health and well-being was somehow being bolstered. I was more creative, full of mischief, energy and verve. I started to see colors and shapes in a 3D way I never imagined prior. It was like suddenly being able to see! I began to journal and write poetry like I did when I was much younger. Over time, I began to be less angry and irritable with my kids and husband. I found that I could pause and take a breath before reacting, to determine the consequences which caused me to be less hysterical and reactive.
I was suddenly writing reams of prose. Chapters to books were crystallizing in my mind on a weekly basis. I was asked to speak at the Canadian Homeopathic Association on my son’s burgeoning exodus from the Autism Spectrum . I began to contribute my musings regularly to the Heilkunst Journal and then to other publications in the field of health in both Canada and the U.S. I began to fall in love with my life and decided to study Heilkunst. By this time, my Autistic son was no longer in the spectrum. With my increasing health, I could actually begin to focus on the things I might like to do and be! I got off the roller coaster for disease and the huge healing reactions abated.
That was almost 20 years ago now. I just had a patient, last month, report that his initial healing reaction was really big. I pulled back on his dropper bottles, suggesting he just sniff them instead and also hold off on the timeline rx until things stabilized. I had the thought that obviously the Universe has some big plans for this fellow too and it isn’t in the business of serving his diseases anymore. Like me, he may be on the giddy up plan!
Note: Those individuals who have more subtle healing reactions are not an indication that they’re not also curing or finding their path to cure. As mentioned above, I was really sick and far off my own, personal intended path. You just may be closer to yours, even in ill health, than I was.
Big Hearted Love,
Ally and Jeff
(Excerpted from September 2016 Newsletter)
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It would be easy to tout facts such as 80% of sedentary American adults watch 3.5 hours of television a day. I could also describe how 92% of all Americans have a television set in their home which consumes more than half of their available leisure time. These facts are fairly well known.
However, a study done at the National Cancer Institute where 221,000 active individuals between the ages of 40-71 years of age still showed a predisposition to heart disease and cancer where T.V. was a 3-4 hour daily habit. This may not be such common knowledge. Also, did you know that chronic television watching is linked to incidences of diabetes, obesity, influenza/pneumonia, Parkinson’s and liver issues as well?
Now, if I open the pages of Michael J. Lincoln’s book, “Messages From The Body” and review the reasons for a few of these diseases cited above, you might perceive the link to how watching television precipitates the state of mind before the disease manifests on the physical level. Here are excerpts from Lincoln’s book from each section specified:
Cancer – “Powerlessness-rage.” They feel overwhelmed and devastated, with a sense of intense emptiness in their life. There has been many years of inner conflict, guilt, hurt, grief, despair, resentment, confusion and/or tension surrounding their deepest personal issues. It is connected with feelings of hopelessness, inadequacy, helplessness and self-rejection. They see no possibility of relevance or effectiveness from the Cosmic realm. They have disharmonious attitudes towards parts of themselves that they don’t want to deal with.”
Heart Issues – “They are not expressing and manifesting love with others-now and/or before. They operate out of scarcity assumptions and the belief in constricting limitations. They tend to judge themselves a failure and therefore work furiously to accomplish on the job and to dominate others. They are full of tension, anxiety, resentment and suppressed aggression. Underneath, they are frightened children full of regrets, sorrow and remorse for a life wasted and a “vast wasteland” experience. They are the product of highly judgmental and demanding parenting that never gave them the message that they were good enough.
Diabetes – “Boulevard of broken dreams.” They are longing for what might have been in their life, and they are in a state of emotional shock. They have a deep dissatisfaction with their life and an accompanying self-dislike. There is intense sorrow and a sense of starving to death in the midst of plenty, of being surrounded by most of the things that have meaning without their being available to them. They have a great deal of despairing desperation, depression and demoralization. It’s a “. . . but not for me” attitude that is often accompanied by a fair amount of feeling very sorry for themselves. There is no sweetness left in life for them, and there is insufficient joy in their life.
Our predecessor, Rudolf Steiner, was a Goethean scientist who spoke liberally about stages of development in seven year cycles. He cited that when a child is first born, they’re most focused on physical development. It takes a lot of internal, mineral, forces to grow a body from its total dependency on Mom and Dad to be able to first sit, then crawl, run and then at 50-70 pounds at age 7, dribble a basketball with any kind of coordination.
From the ages of 7-14, Steiner speaks to how we are more etherically developing our capacity to receive impressions. This is the time in our development when we’re naturally and resonantly ready to be engaged more with art, story (fairy tales and putting on plays), music, eurythmy (a type of rhythmical, dance-like movement mostly found in Waldorf Schools), creativity (watercolors, drawing, sculpting, etc.), hand-work (knitting for metabolic limb coordination), sport (healthy competition) and fully actuating our imaginal forces through the etheric body.
From 14 to 21 we develop our astral bodies through actualizing our desires, goals, dreams through fantasy and socialization. This is when we experience the onset of puberty and hopefully a healthy unfolding of our sexuality. However, “Waldorf educators saw a direct link to this astral body and the watching of television. The scenes, the lack of imagination involved, and the topics covered on most channels would obviously bring on the astral stage of the body at an early age from the outside in. This was one reason that television was banned from Waldorf schools. Modern researchers, however, have just recently made this connection when they recently announced, “Watching Television may Quicken the Onset of Puberty” (Dr. Laura Markham, 2006).
In Markham’s article, based on 35 different research studies she states that this connection has a lot to do with the hormone melatonin. Melatonin is a hormone produced by the pineal gland in the brain, which plays a key role in regulating the body’s internal clock. Light emitted by television screens suppresses melatonin levels in the blood, which disrupts sleep patterns of children and teens as well as the age at which they enter puberty. It is also interesting to note that the problems of early-onset puberty have baffled researchers since 1950. This was the same date in which televisions became widely owned in the United States.”
On one Waldorf school website from Ireland they state, “Television, as well as film, videos, DVDs, recorded music, computers and electronic games have a very powerful effect on children. It can take several days for the effects of a single video to wear off. If children are watching every day, the effects never wear off at all; many children now speak a lot of the time in ‘cartoon’ voices, make ‘sound effects’ to accompany their jerky movements (kicking, punching) and compulsively repeat lines from videos they have seen over and over again. This is now seen as normal childish behavior, but it really comes from these media, not from the children themselves.” I once served an Autistic child who could “script” word for word every Disney movie she’d ever seen!
The other consideration is that we need time in order to process impressions as our thoughts go through a cycle of maturation. Watching television inhibits this natural process. Steiner stated that, “What is learned more slowly at any given age is more surely and healthily absorbed by the organism, than what is crammed into it.” (Spiritual Ground for Education by Rudolf Steiner).
This is also why homework is not promoted in Waldorf education, to give ample time for a child to wholly integrate all of the art, story, plays, music, and movement they were engaged with from the inside out to settle down into their etheric mind (where memory is stored) during the remainder of waking consciousness into the sleep consciousness.
They will wake the next day full of reflections from the day before, having crystallized their impressions into thoughts. Children become sick, first mentally and then physically if this natural rhythm is not allowed for, given that the externalized impressions will override this capacity for thinking. The child’s head, instead, will be filled with images from video games or television. Once again, his own concentration and imagination will have been denied him. He’ll deem that life occurs, out there in T.V. land, not internally in his own world of self-actualized and fructified dreams. The application of a properly threaded Will (male gesture) and Wisdom (female gesture) will be hobbled.
The other problem is that if we’re told at allopathic schools that there is little room for the bubbling up of our internal creativity and that we have to succumb to standardized testing instead, we will begin to feel the light go out on our internal capacity for imagination and freedom of expression. A generalized malaise, and “why bother” attitude starts to show up. It might even lead to suicidal depression in our teens. I know because I serve teens brought to me for Heilkunst Treatment in this state more often than I’d like.
These external dumbing down forces start to spread into the rest of our lives. The why bother gesture begins to permeate everything to the point where a sufferer opts to live externally, watching others live, fulfilling lives through their externalized perpetual fantasies, while the watcher sits on the sidelines and simply watches or controls a gaming console. It becomes a lot less risky to live life on the sidelines physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually if we’ve repeatedly gotten the message that what we’d like to contribute is not wholly valued.
I serve so many of these checked out children and adults, that it is astounding. It is an Aurum (homeopathic rx for the loss of one’s inner gold) state, in which they’ve forgotten their inner value. They’re not connected to their true heart’s desire (heart disease) and their lives feel profoundly un-lived (cancer). In many cases, they don’t even know what they’d like to be anymore, either in the present, or later on when they grow up, as they’ve not even thought to ask themselves this question anymore. They’re utterly resigned. T.V. perpetuates dissociation, escapism, a disengaged onlooker society. The video game and pornography industry is also counting on this physical, mental and emotional inertia of the watcher on the living room couch with his bag of cookies or chips.
Onlookers over time are numb, shut-down and not very resourceful. Perfect if the government, in cahoots with Big Pharma, want to be passing bills for mandatory vaccinations through congress without folks knowing or caring. No, you won’t see that on CNN or allopathic news. That content is only peppered liberally through my personal Twitter stream where my ire is completely provoked to write books and articles about this insidious phenomenon. #vaxxed #cdcwhistleblower Sometimes I actually wonder if there is still anybody out there?!
In Heilkunst Medicine, we also discuss at length a Chthonic, fear-induced state entitled Bufo. In nature, Bufo Rana is a big, meaty, overgrown toad with big slobbery lips and a quick tongue. He sits for hours, unmoving, staring at a fixed point in his environment, barely blinking waiting for a juicy fly to pass by, otherwise he is sedentary, conserving his cold reptilian energy, seemingly unaffected by his ambient. In the human disease state, you’ll observe these characteristics in addition to symptoms of lasciviousness, lewdness, lustfulness, and wantonness. They’re almost drooling as they can’t wait to get home to watch pornography and attempt self-gratification in the basest of ways in private. I’ve served many modern men, and women too, in chronic Bufo states.
I’ve also known two men in my life who were chronic T.V. watchers. One of them watched the news on a popular station from sun-up to sundown. He also developed a tumor the size of a grapefruit in his gut, breaking one of his ribs. He never knew it was there until Doctors noticed it while examining him for a hernia.
A second individual I know retired some years ago and watches a variety of sitcoms, news and documentaries day in and day out. He leaves his house on a very limited basis, living mostly in fear of the outside world. He takes a variety of drugs for depression and anxiety. His pallor is ashen. I can’t help but wonder if his chronic television watching is contributing to his problems.
I also serve individuals who have chronic problems with memory. They have difficulty recalling where they put their keys, issues with dates, times, people’s names, etc. Again, it would be interesting to wean them from television, in addition to Heilkunst Treatment, and see if their etheric memory increases.
As you can see, television is a toxic, mind-numbing and disease inducing machine. It infects you and your family with its agenda, which represents less than 1% of reality. If you travel the real world, as I do, you’ll realize that 99% of the population is so loving, helpful and compassionate, perhaps you too will forget the violence and fear proffered by television.
I’ve not had television in my midst for over twenty years for the precise reasons that I’ve illustrated above. Living without it means that I get to live my own creative, thought-provoking and imaginative life, full of juicy impressions and healthy desires. I’m a photographer, an artist, a romantic scientist and a philosopher. I get to write books, serve patients and compose blog articles based on my own generative impressions, fully taking the time to ruminate upon ideas as they crystallize into articles. I love my over-the-moon fulfilling life and I feel that T.V. would only detract from desire to know myself and others in a deep and meaningful way.
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Recently re-fitting out my first book, The Path To Cure, as a new audio book for a podcast was a ginormous 18 month long project. Jeff asked me to write a brand new intro to every chapter being revealed to a brand new audience weekly. As a result, I had to relive every one of my words written, wrought with so much pain and suffering from the past. For this month’s newsletter theme on Cancer, I chose to decorate the banner with the passion flower instead of the daffodil. Perhaps below, and in our blogs contained herein, you’ll understand the dynamic reason for this.
The truth is that what you’re destined to be is buried like a passionflower seed in your loins and to fully actuate your passion means first finding your individual seed, discerning what it means, and then providing the conditions ripe for it to grow. Think about what you’ve engaged with in life where you truly lose all track of time. If you still can’t figure it out, pick up Boni Lonsburry’s book, The Map to a Responsive Universe Where Dreams Really Do Come True.
Boni acknowledges that while not everyone knows what they want to be, she correctly cites that everyone knows how they want to feel. By holding the charge of feeling and tossing over board your beliefs that you’re value is not great enough to receive such abundance, you can create the circumstances ripe for what you feel ordained to be. Your passionflower will begin to self-actuate and seemingly random opportunities will start to crystallize.
Cancer grows in an environment devoid of heat (resonant sex), oxygen (principled recreation) and love (true desire function). The opposite is the recipe for a fully orgasmic life!
Sugar and chocolate are suppressive and a function of an oral block. She just can’t get the sweet passion out of life! Eating sugar and chocolate is really a sad attempt to garner the sweetness from life externally instead of through primary drives internally. You’re not wholly expressing your feelings to yourself, or others in your life, or fully actualizing your love function (your passion) through to a full fruition (the fruit itself). You have to have juicy sex with the whole of your world.
A primary drive as per full actualization is feeling so connected to your love function that you make no excuses to create what you love confidently and share it with the world unabashedly. This God-imbued talent or gift is hidden in your generative capacity and as you go through Heilkunst treatment, it will get harder and harder to suppress it. Your passion flower can not be suppressed long-term without symptoms.
Don’t be surprised if you suddenly start doodling while on the phone, or magically waking up with whole poems written in your head, or feel driven to teach others how to ferment their own foods, sew baby’s clothing and sell them, coach a fellow mom at her birth, or suddenly pick up a musical instrument, dance, sing, teach, research or become an astronaut. These are just examples I’m thinking of from specific patients I’ve served.
Perhaps this year, you’re poised to find the man or woman of your dreams to have the kind of spiritual and romantic sex that you’ve always dreamed of. Don’t ever settle for anything less, as the Cancer state of mind will reduce your bar, sublimating your true desire function into watching television, eating non-resonant junk foods, doing things for family members to the exclusion of yourself more out of obligation than love or working that tortuous 9-5 desk job in that 10 x 12 cubicle with the daily 3 hour commute.
Cancer is a state of mind defined as the disease of resignation. You’ll hear her say things like, “Well, if I don’t do it, no one else will. And certainly no one can do it as well as me.” They’re exhausted, burnt out. When you listen to them, your internal pathetic meter will be activated. I know, as I used to provoke this response in others. Due to my lack of inner guidance system, folks would happily step up to take over and tell me precisely their agenda and how I’d want to come along.
Cancer loves a false authority which is why I gravitated to false patriarchal constructs like Judaism and also worked for the Government. If someone asked me how I was, I put my child in front of me like a mascot for my un-lived life. The truth was, I didn’t really know. I was just that pathetic an I ended up with an inch and a half round tumour in my left breast as an emblem of how I was devoid of self-nurturing and a real sense of my self.
Let us know if you feel you’re suffering the same and we’ll provide you with the therapeutic keys to harness your own passion flower. We all deserve to wholly self-actualize. I should know … and, oh baby, I do. It’s why I stepped up onto “The Path to Cure.”
I would like to replay for you a conversation I had with two prospective patients recently; a young couple seeking advice regarding fertility.
When I asked about her health history, there were lots of prior use of antibiotics for prior incidences of strept., pneumonia, and earaches as a child/youth.
At about eleven years of age, she’d begun her periods which were excruciatingly painful, for which her family’s doctor had put her on “The Pill” (BCP). She was on this protocol until she married and tried to conceive a child.
Also, there are no studies confirming what the long term effects are for keeping women on this deleterious drug, especially during their formative hormonal development. We’ve been used as the living test subjects where the patriarchal system hasn’t a shred of concern for our long term health or procreative desires later on.
By not solving the root cause for why this woman (I’ll call her Janet) was in pain at 11 years of age, we suppressed her symptoms, mimicked that she was hormonally pregnant for more than 15 years, and then wonder why she can’t make a baby now. It is asinine and a blight of medical mismanagement.
Guess who’s called in to mop up the issues?! Yes, while I’d MUCH rather be called in to serve the patient when she was 11, which is why I write so vehemently about these issues so consciousness and awareness starts to be raised enough and the word spreads to treat the root cause of issues such as these when the issues are first engendered.
I may be really charged up about this, as this was also my plight. I was on 222s with codeine in my teens every time I got my period given the extreme pain. I was also left to bleed to the point of passing out in a Toronto hospital because the doctors did not take my dysmenorrhea seriously. I also had a “mini-stroke” on “The Pill” after driving myself to the hospital in my uncle’s Cadillac, when I should have chosen an ambulance instead. You see, I didn’t know a woman at 22 could have blood pressure so high that a stroke was even possible!
Can you see where this is all going? One sick woman, one autistic babe, and a destroyed immune function by antibiotics and fibromyalgia-like symptoms later, became my own deleterious plight. The root cause of my own ills left at large by a system of medicine that had no capacity to solve them. There is no, natural law or ‘like cures like’ in their toolbox, which leaves most of us women feeling ultimately, and utterly, forsaken.
So when Janet queried if Heilkunst principles and I could “save” her, I sighed to myself. How many women who suffer exactly this phenomenon have darkened our door. The answer is dozens and the scenario is always sadly the same!
I let her know right away that we’ve helped many of these individuals succeed in becoming pregnant. You can read Reanna’s testimonial here if you’d like.
The process for solving Janet’s issue outright is dynamic. I asked her a barrage of questions during this FREE 20 minutes Question & Answer Session:
“What’s your blood type?” (We need to use alkalizing foods to help neutralize the acid from a non-resonant diet.)
How much fermented foods are you getting? (We’ve found that homemade kefir, sauerkraut and kombucha can all help to get your intestinal flora back on track, creating a more resonant environment for hosting another living organism.)
“Are there cancer, thyroid conditions, and diabetes up your family line?” (In these cases, there always is and Janet is no exception, as the Miasm is coloured all through both her mom and dad’s side, causing much of the health issues she suffers. We will apply natural law, like cures like, at the appropriate intervals to address this predisposition outright.)
“Can you create a timeline of all the shocks and traumas of your use of BCP, antibiotic, strept., pneumonia and vaccines (including boosters)? If you choose to work with us, we’ll forward a guide for how to plot this.” (These bacterias and suppressive drugs will be gumming up her works preventing any new life from being easily received. The glut of over-estrogen from the BCP plays a big role in this. Please note that IVF protocols generally worsen the condition of the ground substance, doesn’t solve the root cause, causing further feelings of victimization both mentally and physically. Also, there are no long term studies on how further hormone manipulation affects your long-term health.)
“Can you please have your pH tested before we get started?” (Babies can not easily be conceived in a hostile, low oxygenated environment and the cancer matrix, and all the drugs, will have made her incredibly acidic and unreceptive to new life. Quite often these individuals will come in around 4.5 pH when normal is 7.3 pH.)
“Can you begin, also, by choosing alkaline protocols such as daily carrot juicing and using this baking soda home remedy for acidosis (see recipe below*)?” (By de-acidifying the biological ground substance in the body, the individual will decrease acidosis, the risk for cancer, also making the internal bio-sphere more habitable for new life.)
“Are you living a deep and resonant love with your beloved partner?” (Admittedly, I’ve seen a whole case sabotaged as the patient, due to overt stress, has subconsciously reduced her beloved to “a sperm donor.” Like financial worries, conception worries and prior victimization make unworthy bedfellows in relationships and will also sabotage baby making.)
I’ve illustrated this process for you in the hopes that you will share with others. For us women, infertility has become a scourge of our times. I wanted to explain this process as simply as possible so that you can see more clearly how to prevent this deleterious phenomenon and help me to back it up to its inception, when our children show the first signs of hormonal imbalance.
By solving it naturally, without causing harm using Heilkunst principles, we can more easily fall in love with our resonant other and fully realize our unions by actualizing our full procreative powers endowed to us by our maker, a benevolent Mother/Father God. It is important to know that the oscillating force that put you here on this physical plane gets the final veto power or we produce fear and anger, producing even more acidosis.
When we feel thwarted, we must remembering that on occasion “our will” is trumped, or in contraindication to, “thy will.” Source gets the final yay or nay for reasons neither one of us may understand. Your pro-creativity may be destined for more lofty, spiritual purposes than you might deem at this moment in time. For example, my potential third child, instead, became serving folks like you and writing this piece.
“Shock the monkey
Shock the monkey
Shock the monkey to life”
~ Peter Gabriel
Some of you know that Jeff and I are living in Mexico for the Winter. It is stunningly beautiful here, warm, and teaming with fresh foods and life. Everyday we wake early, often walking the beach, biking or swimming for a couple of hours first thing before clinic and work calls. When we walk, we’re often strolling hand in hand back to our condo, mid-morning, for another swim in the pool, a little sunbathing and a meditation well before lunch. I feel like a kid who’s having so much fun, I forget to eat!
After being here for almost 2 months, I didn’t notice much that my physical body had changed. It is hot, so I wear a lot of dresses. One day, I grabbed a pair of white pants to wear out to dinner. When I buttoned them up, I noticed several additional inches between me and my waistband. Odd, I checked the size thinking I might have packed the wrong ones to bring, but no this was the snug pair that I’d brought with me from home.
Not a week later, I was speaking with a patient who’d fully actualized her essential self and was just finishing up her Heilkunst treatment with me. She mentioned having lost weight recently citing how easily she was letting go. She was excited to tell me how her daughter, who is a Chef, was the one to have recommended, “The Fast Diet” by a Dr. Michael Mosely and Mimi Spencer. I didn’t think too much about it as I’m not one much for fads of any sort, however, in the same week, I came across this Ted Talk video with Mark Mattson on fasting and ketosis and wondered at the recent phenomenon I was experiencing.
Interesting to me, as I both love and hate fasting! I do it full out a couple times a year. Based on principles of not allowing my body to become so complacent with the influx of cooked or even raw foods, I’ll go to a liquid or mono-food diet for a time to give my body a rest, metabolize hidden islets of toxicity and re-boot the grid with regards to my relationship to food. I love food, I love to cook and I often need to recall that,”I eat to live, not live to eat!”
I know that when I’m ready to know a whole concept, the teacher will appear. In this case, my patient, was the cathartic nudge I needed to figure out why I was naturally and easily dropping weight. I knew that our foremothers and fathers did not have the food availability that we do in these modern times and that often, they were not eating 3 meals a day due to shortage.
Even when I worked on the family farm, often we’d be out in the fields or milking cows before dawn, coming up to the house around 11:00 a.m. or noon for our main meal. The table heaped with meat, green beans boiled to well beyond their death in milk and potatoes, always heaps of potatoes. Then we’d have a smaller supper, usually a sandwich made from the noontime leftovers. Then you’d fall into bed just after the sun was down, spent and fulfilled within my beloved community.
My kids, even though they were mostly raised on farms, naturally ate the same way. They would almost always skip breakfast and desire a decent meal around noon and then a snack-like meal again in the early evening or sometimes not at all. Often, they were easily going over 12 hours without food in their teens as they dictated their own nourishing schedule! I also noticed that my children, now adults, always self-regulated their diets out of their innate volition. I also knew to trust my kid’s innate rhythms, as they were the healthiest people I had the pleasure of observing through their organic unfolding! I was always curious about society’s expectation that we eat three meals and snacks as it always seemed excessive to me. The idea of not eating for longer spans of became clear to me when I read how glycogen gets stored up in the system. In humans, glycogen is made and stored primarily in the cells of the liver and the muscles hydrated with three or four parts of water.Glycogen functions as the secondary long-term energy storage, with the primary energy stores being fats held in adipose tissue. Muscle glycogen is converted into glucose by muscle cells, and liver glycogen converts to glucose for use throughout the body including the central nervous system.
The glycogen’s function is to lovingly take care of you in instances of fight or flight. The fast twitch muscles rely on this substance for your reflexes to think and act fast. On that note, perhaps think of the immediate gratification required by our present society; fast food, fast education crammed into our first 20 years, fast growing crops, fast trades on the stock exchange, children growing up too fast and too soon, fast diagnoses, fast pills and fast sex. Little in our modern world is slow and delicious, as we’re always rushing from one thing to the next. The armouring in our physical bodies speak to this constant gesture of immediate gratification.
The problem becomes that if you’re eating every couple of hours, you’re not only adding to the sugar in your blood, but you’re also rarely getting to the strata of the fat layers stored beneath the glycogen. The state of burning fat is termed “ketosis”. Producing ketones is a desirable state loved by both the kidney and heart, that was formerly controversial by some allopathic scientists.
There is an assumption that if a body is burning a lot of fat for energy, it must not be getting “enough” glucose. However, there is no indication, from studying people on reduced carbohydrate diets, that this is the case. If you can’t periodically get into ketosis, you end up suffering a physiological vicious circle of fight/flight. Then, when you grab a latte for lunch en route to an afternoon meeting, you prevent the system from burning fat, sinking into the slow, heat burning furnace we’re capable of.
Many folks are starving from a lack of micro-nutrients, but they’re also superficially cold both physically and emotionally. This is true for slim individuals too, as folks who are ripped in their musculature are often as armoured as the obese person. Think of the runners who’ve dropped dead and the finish line or the woman with arthritis so bad in her one hundred fifteen pound frame. Even Dr. Mercola speaks to the benefits of intermittent fasting and he’s a really lean dude!
When we do eat it is important to engage consciously, deliberately and prayerfully with our food. In our culture, we’ve mostly forgotten the art of romance with food and who we are eating with. Think how nourishing it can feel to eat together with loved ones and while lingering over a bowl of chowder. My husband, Jeff, when he’s eating something he loves that I’ve prepared will literally moan with each bite, closing his eyes and savouring each proffered chaw. God, how I love to feed him!
So how to solve our glycogen habit you ask? First, we have to stop being junkies and then as Peter Gabriel suggests, we’ve got to “shock the monkey!” First of all cut out the coffee. Coffee suppresses fear and is a big cause for anxiety and sleep issues in our culture. Perhaps deal with the underlying cause. Eat organic fruits and vegetables that resonate with your blood type. We’ll send you the food lists, or you can check out Dr. D’Adamo’s book, “Eat Right For Your Type“, and then one to two days a week, you bring your calories down to a mere five hundred for the day.
The idea is that our physiologies are not really designed to eat three meals a day plus snacks. When was the last time you had to fish, forage or hunt for you food? When you’re hungry, really hungry, your mind gets sharp, your body brilliantly taut and at the ready to smartly outwit that trout.
Where did the false premise of eating every couple of hours come from? It is promoted by dieticians trained to follow government food guides, which in turn arise from inimical forces in the allopathic medical field who make money on your three meals a day choices. This constant consumption of food contributes to obesity, cancer, high blood pressure and heart disease.
Suppressing our innate drives of creativity and desires for love and intimacy, by mouth, is often the socially acceptable drug of choice for a lot of people. I’m suggesting that we solve the underlying cause for the angst and pain we suffer instead and stop being so resigned to it; go ahead and shock the monkey! See the stuff that you’re really made of.
This is also the basis for Dr. Mosley and Mimi Spencer’s “The Fast Diet” (although his use of coffee I can’t condone especially for all other blood types except ‘A’). And, no, that doesn’t mean you’re eating like you’re in a blitz! Think the other kind of “fast,” the spiritual one. Folks have been fasting for religious reasons for thousands of years. It is for the purpose of spiritual transformation, getting into the strata of your being-ness, plumbing the depths of your intimate relationship to God. If you’re an atheist, then just think of how your organs and health will benefit.
On five hundred calorie days, it also means slowly and lovingly savoring a farm-fresh egg and some organic cottage cheese with half a grapefruit perhaps late morning, for example, and then a beautiful little stir-fry early evening. If you’re wanting to get back to your healthy weight, have clearer thoughts and a healthier body, Mosley suggests engaging thusly on this fast two days per week and if you’re seeking to maintain your health, purging your system of unwanted toxins or islets of organization, then one day a week is sufficient. It actually is a a lot easier than you might think! Read the testimonials of folks who’ve let go of hundreds of excess weight at the back of the book.
When I was doing the research for this article, I queried my 18 year old daughter, Adie, who is a natural athlete. She trains Olympic-level horses and must remain in a state of self-governance with regards to her heath and regimen.
“Adie, what do you do when you feel hungry?” I heard her pause at the other end of the phone, “Well, I acknowledge the need for a moment and then just let it pass, really. It’s just hunger, it’s not like I’m going to die or anything. Often it’s just a call for more water so I drink, or recognize it for what it is and then just let it go or re-engage more deeply with what I’m working on. I don’t let it dictate my actions as the more I eat, the more food I want.”
I gave a lot of thought to Adie’s words. It is true that I answered the call for food too often myself. Even though I’ve naturally purged a dress size or two, I’m going to grab that monkey by the tail and give him a good yank! Also, I NEVER underestimate happiness, beauty, the beach and good geography for allowing a gal to simply let go.
“Cover me when I run
Cover me through the fire
Something knocked me out ‘ the trees
Now I’m on my knees
Cover me, darling please
Monkey, monkey, monkey
Don’t you know you’re going to shock the monkey”