What Does February Have To Do With Repeating Karma?

[This post is from the February 2021 newsletter – click here to read it.]

Ever suffer the February blahs? Folks in the clinic that we’re serving this month often express a desire to lynch that scrawny little groundhog whether he sees his darn shadow or not. It’s not just that it’s the long days of winter and slush that folks are done with, there can be another aspect related to the Genetic Miasm Ringworm that’s also at play at this time of year.

Ringworm is well depicted by the movie, Ground Hog Day, with Bill Murray. It’s the feeling of struggling, over and over again, with the same darn patterns, and never feeling like you have the keys for full transcendence. It’s karmic themes that keep playing out that feel stuck on repeat, and you’ve lost the remote to be able to change the damn tune.

What is the purpose of such a replay? You may be asking yourself, “What am I missing?” The answer is dynamic. Our intellects hate when we perceive the repeating nature of our difficulties. We want the solution as soon as possible to resolve the nature of our suffering. Who can blame us?

The trick lies in relaxing for a moment and taking stock. What’s the specific theme of the repeating issue(s). A few years back, for example, I suffered horribly with poverty consciousness. I hated that every week, I barely had enough money to buy groceries. The kids were in Waldorf School, Jeff and I were doing our post-graduate studies in Heilkunst Medicine, and we had a farm that took many bags of feed monthly that was also draining our purse. I remember having that sick feeling in the pit of my stomach that we couldn’t afford to live! 

I realized that I had a very deep belief, in my subconscious, that being impoverished is noble. It was a message that was deeply ingrained in me that stemmed from my Irish/Scottosh ancestors. Without ever saying it, they’d passed down to me that wealthy folk are like politicians; inherently corrupt and that to live life ethically, you must be well on the side of insolvency.

It was a few years later that I read something that hit the mark of my state of mind, “Being poor is actually one of the most selfish states of being there is; they can never be generous with anyone, including themselves or their loved ones.”  That hit me hard! It was so true, though, I could not even have afforded to help my kids reach their goals if I’d wanted to and that hurt my heart. 

I went on a mission to create passive sources of income; real estate investments (starting really small with help from friends), interest bearing life-insurance called IBC, etc. Once I addressed my state of mind, things started to turn around for me. I was unblocked from my prior limiting karma and I started to do a little dharma dance instead. At first it was slow and then things began to snowball in a positive way for me and for us. I could help my kids, buy my first tiny house, and help leverage others who were struggling to keep their homes.

I didn’t feel ‘selfish’ anymore and I loved being able to help others. I’ve learned that times like these, are actually the best times to make money. Ethically! By being really creative with the coins you do have, you can learn to double that little bit of money very easily. 

I was reading articles about folks who’d done well by being really smart during the fall of the stock market during the 1930s depression, which was known as one of the worst impoverished times in our human history. It was so inspiring.

While I’ll always make most of our food at home from scratch and buy my clothes second hand, now I have a choice. Liberty from my old state of mind means that Ringworm no longer comes up for me in early February like Punxsutawney Phil.

Disclaimer: No groundhogs were actually harmed in the making of this post.

What Have We All Learned About Ourselves in 2020?!

[This post is from the December 2020 newsletter – click here to read it.]

Happy Holidays! Man, it’s been one wild rollercoaster ride after another this past year. Lots of folks have said to me that they’d like this year thrown into the most fiery incinerator possible and buried in an unmarked grave. I totally understand.

I’ve had some of these same thoughts, on and off. Back in March and April I, too, felt quite lost and forsaken as the lockdowns encroached more and more on our basic rights and freedoms. At times, I felt really scared as the Mexican city we live in seemed more and more like a ghost town. If one more storekeeper pointed a temperature-taking gun at my head, I was going to take them to the floor like an Hapkido Master. Mandatory masks were extremely upsetting as people were taken to the local police station and charged with heavy fines if found not wearing one.

I took a lot of homeopathic remedies for anger, fear and loss of inner value. There were a lot of Orchid Essences in that mix as well as my colleague in Canada was experimenting with different combinations and she was seeking a fellow voyageur in this realm of flower essences. At some point in early May a switch occurred and I started to feel more secure and even joyful, again, at times.

I was reading voraciously for hours every morning. I got back into my Gnostic studies. I also studied gematria, anthropology, anthroposophy and many books on art as I was drawing again on the patio with the umbrella up on Sundays. We started ordering food from a woman who crafts healthy international foods like a chef of great acclaim even though she hails from Kingston, Ontario. She also brought me raw cow’s milk from a neighboring farm. I teared up the first time.

This helped me feel the nurturing I needed in order to serve others carrying an incredibly heavy load; suddenly homeschooling their kids, others trying to find their right geography in these raucous times and sorting through their own feelings of anxiety, depression, anger, resignation and outright terror. Suddenly folks were calling in unable to sleep, suffering panic attacks and depression.

I quickly realized that I had to up my own game to help shoulder the load that my beloved patients were carrying. I started fasting twice a week for 6 weeks in order to lighten my own load. My exercise and weight bearing program became more rigorously adhered to. I was out walking in the sunshine 6 days a week doing 8,000 to 10,000 steps each hike, here, at 6,500 feet above sea level.

I ordered fish oil from Norway, got some powdered Reishi Mushrooms in capsules and powder for my shakes, oregano oil, got a zinc and turmeric combination, ensured I had a good Vitamin C supplement and took a mitt full of all these supplements everyday just like I counsel patients to do instead of my more laissez-faire two or three times per week.

While this year has proven to be intense with many challenges, I feel as if I’ve grown exponentially and that I better understand the functional purpose for humanity at this time. We’re burning off our mechanical and materialistic karma in favour of self-knowledge and a deeper love and compassion for our fellow men and wombyn. The concept of self-education has taken off like a beacon in the ethos of many families. It’s been so heartening on so many levels. 

I know that we are going to craft our future together, peer to peer, shoulder to shoulder while carrying so many less financial and spiritual burdens in the end. These turbulent and difficult times will end and the individual will bear the new dawn with a renewed sense of grace never known before in our lifetimes.

Jeff and I want to wish you all an abundant, loving, and spiritually meaningful holiday season. We will be soaking up some rays, swimming in the ocean, reading for hours in the shade and enjoying some time with resonant friends here in Mexico.

Are You Feeling Done, Cooked and Finished?!!!

[This post is from the August 2020 newsletter – click here to read it.]

This month we’re handling the very tough subject of feeling suicidal. It is totally normal in these times to feel lost, bereft, confused, unmotivated and tired beyond description. We understand and you’re not alone.

We are being tried, distilled down to our very pins. No more gorging on materialism for us and while we’re at it, we may as well throw out any delusions that false authority has our backs. We’re uncovering so many truths so fast, mostly from our peers, that it’s destabilizing to say the least.

It’s not easy to discern what is real and what is fake. Not just when it comes to the news, but to every aspect of our lives and culture. It is normal to feel concern, even fear, and even more poignant emotions like, “What the hell is the point?” Or, “Why do I want to live in such a world?” Or, “What possible future can I offer my kids out of the rubble of ruination?”
Just hang on for a second as this is the contractive phase of a more promising golden age. Which is why many of us have needed the homeopathic remedy aurum metallicum. Aurum is the latin term for ‘gold’.

If you’re inclined, read Catherine Ponder’s book, “The Dynamic Laws of Prosperity: Forces That Bring Riches to You” which explains how your consciousness dictates your abundance and how, even in times of supposed scarcity you have dominion over your wealth. 

On a very intimate level, you’re being asked to get ‘jiggy’ with The Source that put you here as your value is beyond priceless; a wonder to behold. Nothing can squander what you know, what you’ve learned, what you’ve lived or what you can create. You’re boundless in the love you share in just one look or even a smile. You can change another’s day, just by opening a door for them or making eye contact. 

Watch the movie, “It’s a Wonderful Life” if you sometimes forget. Let us know if you need the homeopathic remedy Aurum at your next session and we will be sure to dose it with an extra chunk of love.

***In this case, please leave prescribing Aurum to your Heilkunst professional.  Homeopathic remedies for deeper states of neurosis or psychosis are not to be treated lightly.

Have You Lost Your Inner Value? A Vignette on Aurum Metallicum Discussing an Excerpt From Our Book-in-Progress on Staphysagria

Video Transcription

Jeff Korentayer
Why, hello, Allyson McQuinn!

Allyson McQuinn
Well, hello, Jeffrey Korentayer! How are you?

Jeff Korentayer
I’m doing very well. Thank you so much. So the reason we are here today in this format is we want to talk about actually something that you recently wrote. You wrote a nice piece on the homeopathic remedy “Aurum Metallicum”. But to give that an even greater context, you were writing as a piece in the book in progress that we are both working on together on the remedy “Staphysagria”. That’s been a big project. But yeah, you’ve been very graciously stepping in and putting some of these pieces together. And why do we even want to do that? What if we’re writing a book about Staphysagria? Why are you writing about Aurum? Well, the main theme of Staphysagria is on the theme of dignity and honor and anger, victimization – things like that. And we wanted to take a range of some other homeopathic remedies, which can be used as comparisons for other aspects of anger and similar themes to the Staphysagria. So that’s the bigger context here today. But Allyson, do you want to talk a little bit about your article or at least the first point in your article where we’re starting with Aurum?

Allyson McQuinn
Yeah, with pleasure. And I think it came up because we were discussing over dinner the other night how Aurum is a remedy for this particular time that we find ourselves in. And I’ve been doing a lot of studying around Aurum as the remedy being derived from gold. And in Heilkunst and homeopathic studies, we always look at something called the doctrine of signatures, which means, really, How does gold feature historically and time.

Why this is important for our time is because a lot of people that have suddenly found themselves at home without their work, minimized with regards to being able to go out or access the things that they normally have access to, can actually really minimize our inner value. And this can cause an enormous amount of rage. And rightly so if we feel that our capacities or our generative power is being minimized, and especially if that’s not from our own choice. So just to lead off with what I had written in the chapter for Staphysagria about Aurum…

Jeff Korentayer
I’m just going to bring your document up on screen if that’s where you’re going to look at. And also, just if I could take one moment more here. I will ask anyone who is watching, you can type if you have any questions or even comments. And if you’re watching on Facebook or you’re watching on YouTube right now, feel free to type your comment or your question into the comment box and we will be able to address that live. We’ll just time it according to (if we’re in the middle of saying something, we’ll, of course, wait till the end of that before we bring your comment in). But yeah, we do appreciate all of that. And as I say, that’s open for you to enter down below. And I will turn it back over to Allyson in two shakes of a lamb’s tail. There you go, hon. So yeah, you’ve got your document and back to our regularly scheduled talk.

Allyson McQuinn
Awesome. Thank you. So Aurum is a homeopathic remedy, as I mentioned, derived from gold. And it’s interesting to note that prior to the federal reserve, a private company that was set up by the Rockefeller family, bank notes (and a lot of people don’t know this) are actually just a representation of the gold that you would have had in your bank account. So let’s say, you and I, Jeff, we had a business transaction and you wanted to buy a quarter of my cow so that you could have meat for the winter. On the basis of the gold that was in your bank account, because it was really heavy and to bring that gold bar out and bite off a chunk to give me in trade for the side of beef, that was gonna be really awkward. So these temporary or, really, representation and it’s funny that we call bills, you know, notes while they’re bills of sale. They’re bank notes. They’re notes, based on the gold that we use to hold in reserve within our bank accounts. Now it’s interesting to know that the federal reserve in modern times, actually is not related to any federal organization. It was started by the Rockefellers. And the interesting thing is that at any moment, the Rockefellers have the right to pull all those bank notes back in. And we’re like, “Oh my gosh, that’s my value in my wallet. That’s representative of the generative work that I’ve done.” And what we’re learning through this whole process is that, “Wow, my inner gold or self worth is actually hinged on an illusion.” Right? That’s why, right now, the crypto currencies are going wild. And people like Jeff Berwick is saying buy gold guys. Buy gold, because it is an opportunity to reclaim our worth.

Jeff Korentayer
And a couple of interesting things I want to comment on what you just said there, you we’re using that example of me buying a quarter of your cow. The interesting stat I saw recently, as far as the value of gold, it’s stayed quite steady over time. And the statistic I saw (I forgot the exact timeframe that was being compared), but basically, the value of one ounce of gold today will buy just about one whole cow. And that has remained a constant over the years. I forgot the timeframe they were using, but when they went back X number of years, the same constant was true – that one ounce of gold for one cow. So yeah, this whole idea you’re saying, Allyson, of when somebody else now comes in and they substitute the gold and it now becomes something you can manipulate, you’re right. It gets right into the theme of Aurum which is now somebody else can manipulate your value and you can’t express and manifest who you are and your value in the world, in that sense.

Allyson McQuinn
Yeah, well said. And I think, as I was studying and researching for writing this piece, I unearthed other interesting stories about people – men that have worked on Wall Street. And when the crash occurred in the 1930s, two of them (not as many as we were led to believe), walked just to the edge of the windows and jumped. And this is kind of a very Aurum rubric that we find in our literature a lot is that the individual, when they lose their value, it is an outer manifestation. If the stock market crashes, the idea is that my value should remain intact under the dominion of God or whatever creator gave me life. That state of mind is one that cannot be torn asunder, right? Or I’m in a state of Aurum.

What often has happened is that the thumbprint of a parent has told that child from early on. And I served a patient years ago where his father was the owner of seven multinational companies. And he gave him like a little piece of business to take care of underneath that umbrella of the seven month multinational companies. And just paraded the sun and made him feel awful. And he was out for a ski one day, and his father kept calling and saying, “You’re lousy,” “You’re useless,” “You have no value,” “You suck at this. I can’t trust you one bit.” I mean, it’s horrible and abusive. But this young man (this son), had never known anything other because he had never had it intrinsically embedded in him that his worth was sound.

So you can imagine, as practitioners, working with this patient. Or other practitioners in our field, working with individuals who have had their complete value, we wrote it. And really, then it becomes like an external decision by a false authority to define your value. And I think a lot, again, just going back, this has happened in this modern time that we’re in that were like, holy crap. I didn’t realize how much I could be puppeted by external forces of false authority. And erode my value now that I’m, maybe, home without a job, trapped with my kids who are really grappling with their own value because school has been their false authority. They’ve lost, really, the intrinsic or inherent knowledge of who they are with regards to learning and pursuit of happiness and liberty. So all of this is coming up for a lot of people right now.

Jeff Korentayer
And yeah, you’re right. It’s a very relevant remedy in the current situation for all the reasons you just said. And you reminded me as well, just now, of when we’re doing this comparison between the remedy Aurum and the remedy Staphysagria, they have a lot in common – with a lot of dots we can join between the two of them. But as you’re saying here, the Aurum is related to this inner value. And as far as our creative capacity or productive capacity in the world, the obvious examples of having a job and going to a job and feeling that sense of purpose every day, that’s the Aurum. That’s the Aurum meaning, that’s that sense. Where in Staphysagria – the sense of anger, the sense of dignity, all these other things – are coming from a different place. And in the Staphysagria remedy, the main remedy of this book, you can say it’s a dignity or it’s a sense of identity, which gets more to the general human dignity or the broader sense of who our human identity is. So that’s where we have all the things like human rights, and of course, all the change in our society over the last number of decades between equalization of rights, between races, and between genders and all these things. That’s getting more to the Staphysagria sense of that human dignity or human identity. Whereas the Aurum, as you were just describing it, Allyson, has more that sense of our productive or creative capacity, how we are expressing ourselves in the world as far as those those abilities or capacities. So you’re just reminding me of that, Allyson. I wanted to mention that.

And for anyone, by the way, if anyone has been following our progress on the Staphysagria book, you can go to this page, on our website, arcanum.ca/staphysagria. And if you scroll down, you can enter your name and email. And we don’t send very many emails at all to this. That’s just for sending out news of when the book will be ready to be published. But yes, if you’re interested in what we’re talking about here, boy, wait till you see the book. It’s gonna be full of all kinds of fun stuff like this.

Allyson McQuinn
Yeah, I find it interesting that you make that comparison between Staphysagria and Aurum. And it became very profound for me when I was writing this section on Aurum. Staphysagria, if they have something in their hand and they become incited by rage, they’ll pitch it, right? But Aurum, due to the lack or the loss of dignity, will pitch themselves. They don’t even think about their value at that moment when the Wall Street crashed and became this great depression. They didn’t even think about it. They walked to the edge and jump. They don’t even have any premeditated thoughts around it. It’s just a done deal. And that’s the thing that I really want to bring up. Because right now people are feeling bereft and they have, in many cases, lost their inner value because of this whole pandemic thing. And so the concerning factor is that, and I’m writing this, I’m thinking, “Oh my gosh. We have to tell people that there is a way, really, to get their value back, to help them find new meaning in a different way and actually craft their world.” So that it’s not based on how many paychecks they get from an outside provider. That they have a way through their own creativity. I know because I’ve been connected to the world schoolers for so long. These are people that live all over the world, put a backdrop down and teach English as a second language to children in Japan and China. There are always creative ways to solve these problems. And if you’re not suffering from the Aurum state of mind, it makes it a whole heck of a lot easier to access that creative generative power within us.

Jeff Korentayer
Totally. Yes. Now, you have right in front of your screen here. This story you wrote of an Aurum picture that you experienced (you witnessed) in your own life. Do you want to read that or do you want to contextualize it first?

Allyson McQuinn
No, I can read that. So while I was at university (just apologize for the sirens in the background), I was invited to a roommate’s sister’s house for supper with their family. And the husband, still wearing his suit over supper, spoke about nothing but the goings on in his office. Not one individual present seemed to be paying attention, including his wife (and my friend’s sister). I could tell by looking in her eyes that this was a daily occurrence. And then two months passed, and I was invited back again, as I never said no to free food at that time in my life, because University was lean times. When we arrived, the house was really quiet. And it turned out the husband had been let go of his job. And he was beyond devastated. He was distraught. And I was alarmed at appearance because he looked like a street person. Like an alcoholic down on his luck. He’d lost an incredible amount of weight. At the time, he was nursing a scotch and his eyes were really red rimmed. Clearly, he had been crying. And it seemed that all that vitality had been sucked right from his very being in a most distressing way. And so I decided to sit with him and find out what he was feeling. And as he began to talk, he really started to choke up and he couldn’t actually continue. And his wife came to comfort him by putting her hand on his back. And he was really a shell of his former self, and I wondered if he had the capacity to transcend this profound insult to himself in his psyche.

Jeff Korentayer
Yeah, I think those are some of the most helpful when we have a personal experience, a personal story, like that. For one, like for yourself, for ourselves, it really can cement such an image in our minds really coming to understand a remedy. But likewise, it’s almost as good when you tell that story. It now becomes a teaching story for anyone listening. So I think, as I’m saying, those real life images (those real life stories) are just so full of all of the characteristics that we’re really looking for to understand a given remedy. Right? It’s not just, you know, this is I think… Actually, just yesterday I was doing a video on another topic, but this is what is reminding me of here is when you have a false approach to diagnosis, you just get these generalized abstract labels, “Oh, somebody has depression,” “Somebody has feeling suicidal,” “They have this,” “They have that,” just kind of a generic list of symptoms. But when you give this really vivid, living story, you can really feel the energy of that remedy is. So, I thank you for bringing this in and your great storytelling around that.

Allyson McQuinn
With pleasure. And just to go back to that other fellow that I served many, many years back. As his father was yelling at him on the ski hill, he kept having to take his glove off. And when he got down to the bottom, he realized that both his hand and his ear, that it had exposed from his had to listen to his father screaming at them, were both frostbitten. And the interesting thing about Aurum, really, is that there’s another aspect or another remedy that we study in relationship a lot of the time called Agaricus. And we’re going to write another bit on that today. That’s my project today. And Agaricus is the chief remedy for being suppressed by false authority. But it’s also one of our chief remedies for frostbite.

Jeff Korentayer
Mm hmm. Totally. Yeah. Now, that’s an interesting case for having both the Aurum and the Agaricus part to it. But, anyways, that will take us a little bit further away from our main point. But, yeah, that is a good story.

Allyson McQuinn
Talk about, Jeff, if you will, something you mentioned over our shake this morning, about dignity. The difference between dignity and Staphysagria and in Aurum, if you will. You’re talking about the upper man and the lower man, I was really fascinated by what you were saying.

Jeff Korentayer
Yeah, it is. Thank you for reminding me. Yeah, that is definitely a key theme, or an idea, between the two remedies. The idea of dignity and now, what is different, like what is the Staphysagria dignity versus the Aurum dignity. And as I mentioned a couple of minutes ago, the Staphysagria, their dignity is based on the generic sense of human dignity. “How dare you talk to me that way?” or “How dare you assume I’m…?” Like, “Don’t treat me like a stereotype. But treat me like an individual,” kind of thing. That’s the Staphysagria dignity. Whereas the Aurum, their dignity is coming more from their productive creative power. Now, the question you just asked there, where do we ground that? Well, in the broader understanding of Heilkunst medicine, we look at our whole physiology in terms of their being two beings (two human beings). When here, we are looking at Allyson and Jeff on the screen. When you understand human physiology, there’s actually four people. There’s upper Jeff, there’s lower Jeff; there’s upper Allyson, there’s lower Allyson. So there’s actually four of us doing a broadcast right now. Now to put that into our context of Staphysagria and Aurum, when that dignity is contradicted or frustrated, in Staphysagria you’re getting much more of an expression of the upper being, being frustrated. And in the case of the Aurum remedy, it’s the nether being. So, what that means is in Staphysagria you’ll get what we call anger (the word ‘anger’) and in Aurum I think we’d be much more correct to call that rage instead of anger. And if you’ve ever wondered, “Well, is there a difference between anger and rage?” Well, a good start to that is the anger comes from the upper being and the rage comes from the nether being. In a way, I always think of rage, if you think of that old (I guess, maybe it’s been revised now) that old TV show (it’s a new movie now) The Incredible Hulk. Well, that was an artistic portrayal of rage. When this whole other big green guy kind of pops out, and he can throw cars and do all these things. That’s the activity of rage. Or let’s put it in a positive light. When you hear those stories of just like a baby gets trapped under a car or something like that. The mother, not even knowing what she’s doing, she’s operating from a completely different state of mind. She can come and she can lift up the front end of that car and rescue the baby. Where in a normal waking state, she couldn’t lift something like that. Like we don’t normally think we have that kind of strength. But when you tap into that nether being (which is where the rage comes from, which is also where these tremendous heroic acts can come from as well), that’s that nether being shining right through and really taking over the situation. So that’s to back it up to this difference between the Staphysagria anger and the Aurum rage. That’s really this physiology that we’re looking at – the upper being, the nether being. They both have two very different ways of being in the world, basically.

Allyson McQuinn
Yeah. Well said. So do you want to take a look at what you’d pulled up from Morrison?

Jeff Korentayer
Sure, let me just switch screens here. Oh, yeah, there we are. So Roger Morrison is one of our favorite homeopathic Materia Medica as it’s a very quick reference. And I just have his pages here. And a lot of the things we’ve talked about – the depressive tendency of Aurum, the suicidal tendency – you find that in any Materia Medica. Those are pretty standard features of Aurum. But one of the sides of Aurum, Allyson, you’ve done a really good job portraying the whole state of mind about losing your job. And that story you told of the man who almost looked like a homeless man in his own home. He was so disheveled and all the rest of it. That’s a very clear picture of Aurum. But I like what he has here in the Morrison book. He has another side, almost like a hidden side, of Aurum where you wouldn’t see someone as, you know, you wouldn’t call them depressed or suicidal, they wouldn’t even call themselves that. It’s not a thought they have about themselves. But there’s a certain kind of, let’s say, intensity or focus, when they latch on, especially if things of a spiritual nature. They may latch on to a spiritual practice or meditation practice or any number of things like that. And they will do it with such an intensity. It’s kind of coming from this more of this Aurum compensation. They’re trying to grasp on to some kind of thread of meaning in their world. And it’s interesting the way I just said that, the grasping on to meaning. Because I believe you said earlier today, Allyson, (I can’t remember if I just remembered you writing this earlier or me reading it) but the Aurum is related back to the syphilitic miasm. And the syphilitic miasm, again, that’s where the hopelessness, the suicidal feelings, the despair in Aurum comes from because syphilis has all of that in spades. And this whole idea of, as I said, just grasping onto something with this intensity (grasping on for something that’s going to give them their life meaning), and as I say, they don’t even think of themselves as depressed or suicidal or anything like that. But it’s coming out of this syphilitic miasm where that’s the whole essence of syphilis is the very basis of life is destroyed – there is no sense of meaning, there is no sense of hope. We’re just kind of putting one foot in front of the other going through our life, going through our days. But yeah, syphilis, that of course, can lead to the depression and the suicidal thoughts and all the rest of it. But even before then, we have this much more generalized sense of erosion – the whole sense of meaning of life is just kind of whittled away. And if you look at our modern world (our modern society), we very much live in a syphilitic world, right? Again, we have great material abundance by and large, obviously, in our North American lifestyles than many other parts of the world. But yet, there’s a great shadow to that. There can be an incredible spiritual emptiness where more and more people don’t have any idea of what gives life meaning other than “Okay, we’ve booked the next holiday (the next vacation),” this and that. Of course, our topic today on Aurum and all the job losses and other losses that are happening through the current pandemic lockdowns. But regardless of that, let’s say, we weren’t in such a situation, we still find ourselves living in this very syphilitic world. And therefore, this is why we see this very strong overlay of Aurum in our modern world. I’m sorry, so to bring bring it back full circle to the point I started with. So, when we’re in the Morrison and we see this other side that he portrays (this deep intensity or seriousness that someone will latch on to some form of spiritual pursuit – as I said, whether that’s meditation, yoga practice or all the different variations on that – there’s nothing wrong with those things), but other than when we detect that there’s this kind of Aurum drive or an intensity to it, there’s another meaning that’s going on here. And that’s, as I say, that’s what I’m calling the hidden side of Aurum where people don’t realize how their drives are working that matter.

Allyson McQuinn
Yeah. And, I’ve seen it a lot of recent because of the events of recent in women as well – women who have had their purpose stolen from them. And that’s how they perceive that. They can run multiple businesses at home. They can have a thriving yoga practice or be yoga instructors. They can be also meditators – people who are very hyper religious. And it’s all, again, this outside in, really, sense of one’s value – as long as they’re doing all of the things that society says is productive. They’ve derived their wealth or sense of their self very much from these external definitions. So, again, it’s not just business men and women that can suffer an Aurum state. It also can be homeschoolers. And I’ve seen that to people – women that educate their kids at home. At 10 o’clock they do their yoga and then they have their oils business and then they pray or meditate. It’s very regimented, but they’ve forgotten in all of this. And it’s very much a product of our intellectual age that we live in. And again, it’s this definition from the outside in, as opposed to really knowing that as a human with breath in my lungs, I’m enough. With the creative thought in my mind, “I’m enough.” Or “I’m being in an Aurum state,” will rip that knowledge away from the individual. And then the rage just comes over and over. It’s like, “Well, I did this thing. How come God’s not looking after me?” or, “I prayed and I did this business thing. Why isn’t it yielding?” or, “My kids and I are constantly fighting because I want them to do these things.” And again, we’re just imparting the same Aurum state of mind. That’s why I wrote the book about schooling, which is Self-education for Excellence, because I want parents to know that they can actually create a different paradigm for their children, which is that you’re enough. And that you get the opportunity (really, that God-given opportunity), to self-invoke out of volition, who it is you want to be as a result of that inner value intact.

Jeff Korentayer
Very excellent. Yeah. And that’s the key point right there it is. It does come from the inside, and not from the outside. And that’s precisely the challenge or the struggle in the Aurum disease state of mind, that when it’s either literally lost like losing a job or losing that external validation. But yes, that’s the true lesson and the true meaning that comes from that Aurum remedy. Now, we’re probably gonna wrap up shortly. But certainly, we’re so happy to take any of your questions. You can just type them into the question box below. Or, conversely, if you like coming on camera, that’s an option, too. I got a link where you can come and join us.

Allyson McQuinn
We can pipe people in?

Jeff Korentayer
Pipe people in, yeah. Like the news at six o’clock. You know, professional studio.

Allyson McQuinn
Yeah, not the fake news.

Jeff Korentayer
Not the fake news. Real news, real good news.

Allyson McQuinn
Put out the link again, honey, for the book. If you will.

Jeff Korentayer
Oh, of course. Yeah. And if you would like to get news on as we progress through the writing of this Staphysagria book, you can go ahead to our website here, and you can just enter your name and email. We barely ever email to that list. That’s, as I say, just for sending out news when the book is ready to go to print and all the rest of that. But yeah, otherwise, if you don’t have any questions, we’ll wait for another minute or so. I know there’s a delay between our talking and when it goes back and forth from where you’re watching us. So we’re doing a little bit of time traveling here. We’re about one minute in the future from where you guys are coming from. So I’ll keep it open for a moment if someone is still typing. Yeah, we are getting some nice thank you’s and things like that. So, you’re very welcome. We appreciate your attention and sharing the time with us today.

Allyson McQuinn
Just to mention the timeline in the book, hon. We’ve written multiple books published. I have about 20 of them out on to Amazon. But it’s not an easy thing. Think about it as the gestation of an elephant, especially these big heady research pieces there. It takes a lot to pull this together and also have full practice answering acutes on a regular basis when we’re not in front of our patients a few days a week. So, just thank you so much for your patience. We’re going just as fast as our little legs can carry us. This time has actually helped us a little bit because we are also sequestered where we are in the world. And so, yeah, we still have to get up and move and walk around a bit and take a hike and get some groceries. So like you, I feel that it always takes longer than you ever think.

Jeff Korentayer
Mm hmm. What’s the thing? Take your estimate and multiply it by 10? And then, (inaudible)? Yeah.

Allyson McQuinn
All right. Well, Jeff, thank you so much for taking time out. I know Fridays are really busy for you in many regards. So thank you for sharing this space with me and just doing this work with me and discussing and living it with me.

Jeff Korentayer
Well, it’s my pleasure. Yeah, when you suggested this, I jumped right all over it. I’m just excited for this, too.

Allyson McQuinn

Jeff Korentayer
Okay. Well, thank you all again. And we will see you whenever we next see you.

Allyson McQuinn
Bye for now.

Jeff Korentayer
Bye for now.

How Might Groundhog Day Be Related to Ringworm and Your State of Mind?!

[This post is from the January 2020 newsletter – click here to read it.]

Do you ever have the feeling that you’re stuck in a karmic loop? Are you repeating unwanted patterns in your relationships and in your work? Do you secretly wish for a bottle that says, ‘Drink Me’, and a key to a door of a secret garden? (Read on to find out how you may be touching on the edges of the Ringworm seasonal miasm!)

I feel you. This was also my story once upon a time. I felt like I was just surviving my life. I had a job that my heart was not connected to. I felt stuck in a geography that had too many months of winter when I secretly desired an eternal spring. I had violent thoughts every Groundhog Day! I also felt that I was not able to be the best mother because I was secretly miserable.

Many of you will tell yourself that you’re stuck! This illusion plagues more of us than you may even realize. We’ll tell ourselves that our commitments and our ties to a bi-weekly paycheck have us beholden to the same grind over and over, year after year.

If we believe what we’ve been told by our parents around getting a good job and securing a pension, or that once you’re cemented into said job, geography or community, you have to stay stuck. It’s a delusion that we’ve told ourselves often because we think we have no choice.

Did you know that I serve many families, often with six or seven kids, that work off-line and live in countries all over the world? All of their stuff fits into two duffle bags. The parents work as writers, editors, IT consultants, and even teachers of English to kids in other countries, pulling a backdrop down behind them in their kitchen and living cheaply in Mexico or Thailand, having rented out their house back in the U.S. or Canada. 

I’m not suggesting that this lifestyle fits you. I’m just saying that our beliefs and self-worth can open the world to us, and even our families, rather than just keeping it more in the mode of what we feel born into for the rest of our lives. The thing is that symptoms only arise when we feel stuck in our limiting beliefs rather than opening up the realm of possibility.

The Genetic Miasm Ringworm speaks to these cyclical patterns of belief. The disease becomes engendered in us if we feel stuck in a mode of ‘repeat.’  If we’re unconscious of this, it will feel like we’re plagued by the theme from the movie, Groundhog Day, which is why we wrote this month’s blog post for you. Often you can’t jimmy a limiting belief if you first don’t even know you’re stuck in one. 

Perhaps your New Year’s resolution is to get yourself to higher ground. Maybe you’re sick of the perpetuating loop. If you’re tired and more than a little fed-up with facing a new decade with the same job, geography, or limiting relationships, this newsletter is for you.  We’ll see you on Doxy, Zoom, Skype, or Facetime for a consultation. Waking up annoyed and desiring something different is the first step.

If not, you can carry on and skip this month’s newsletter articles completely. Cheers to a New Year, lived totally on your terms!

Staphysagria and Malaria – Two Faces of Victimization

[This post is from the October 2019 newsletter – click here to read it.]

What does late fall have to do with feelings of victimization, you may ask?  Well, perhaps you didn’t think to ask, but after reading our articles, you will. Around the first week of November the state of mind for Malaria looms in our human consciousness. Here’s a snippet:

“The state of mind of malaria is one of irritability, and to an even greater degree than in psora. It also surpasses psora in its degree of fatigue, as well as pessimism. The core feeling in malaria is of being victimized, which departs from psora’s feeling of simply not having enough (energy, time, money, etc.). In the classic infection of malaria, the typical carrier is the mosquito, and if you think of any time you’ve ever felt ‘bugged’ or even ‘victimized’ by mosquitos, then you will start to have a sense of this feeling in the malaria miasm. Malaria may feel overly sensitive, either physically or emotionally, and that their environment is hostile towards them.”

Why do the Genetic Miasms (the roots for chronic disease) correspond to the seasons you may ask? Great question. The answer lies in the evolution of human consciousness. Our Jeff has provided part of the answer here:

“…the progression of these diseases has a general tendency from the most superficial organs and functions, down into the deepest ones. Clearing all of these miasms gives everyone a tremendous increase in their total state of health, and really gets at one of the primary goals of the “high school” level of the Heilkunst curriculum, namely to fully restore the function of the etheric body, and to restore its full capacity for pulsation and ultimately in “digesting life”.”

As he mentions, the order is important, from the more superficial (skin as per Psora) to the deeper issues (bones as per Lyme). There was a book entitled ‘Rediscovering Real Medicine’ written by a Swiss Physician, by J.F. Elmiger, MD. He took Dr. Hahnemann’s foundational teachings of chronic diseases and through scientific observation recognized that each Miasm seemed to loom in his patients most profoundly at certain junctures in the year related to the Equinox or Solstice at the change in seasons.

Since we are creatures of nature, subject to natural laws, it would make sense that we’d be governed by these same laws. Specifically, our diseases are layered based on the ‘law of succession of forces.’  See more here if you’re interested: https://arcanum.ca/2018/10/11/what-is-sequential-therapy/

This month’s blog articles are related as one of the other chief remedies for victimization is Staphysagria. In fact there is so much to learn about this state of mind that we’re working on writing a whole book about it:

Until this book is completed, we’re furnishing you with these articles, a bird’s eye view into anger, powerlessness and victimization and why the fall, when the lifeblood of the trees and flowers retreats back into the earth for another season of dormancy affects you. As feeling bereft and victimized is a function of disease, not whole robust or restored health.

To solve this state of bereftness and victimization, we often have to treat both states in our patients, especially as it relates to fall.  When all these ingredients show up in their symptom picture, we act accordingly. Then the patient’s inner nature will feel the power to transcend what the diseases Malaria and Staphysagria have beguiled her to believe; she’s bugged and victimized beyond repair.  On the other side, there is more liberty, a juicier taste of freedom.

SSRIs and Vulnerable Patients


Let’s talk about the difficult topic of those taking antidepressant drugs (ADs), in particular the Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors (SSRIs) and the emergence or worsening of suicidal ideation in “vulnerable patients.”  However, it is still suggested that you use these drugs anyway?! Across the globe, ADs, especially SSRIs, are among the most commonly prescribed medications.

We’ve treated many folks suffering feelings of suicide. I actually think it’s a big reason why I came to Heilkunst Medicine in the first place, as my own mother had committed suicide, and I had fear that it would be a disease matrix that might show up in my own kids. I wanted that predisposition annihilated.

That was over 20 years ago and I’m happy to say that I’ve by far outlived both my parents, and life couldn’t be more pleasurable and full of meaning and purpose for me. Using Heilkunst principles to resolve this tendency for ourselves and others has been very rewarding.

By addressing the root cause, one no longer needs to manage with drugs. Yes, I’m sure you’re wondering about unbalanced brain chemistry, however, this is the level at which we’re referring. Brain chemistry can shift when you remove the blockages to cure on the sound basis of the law of nature, ‘like cures like’.

I know this because, clinically, I’ve seen tendencies like OCD, autism, schizophrenia and manic depression addressed consistently with Heilkunst Principles. I’ve also seen the reports of our patients who’ve confirmed these qualitative shifts with the endocrinologist, the NDs, the energy workers, and the live blood analysts, over the last 20 years.

If you’re interested in exploring more about the tonic roots for these conditions, you can read our blog article on the Syphilitic Genetic Miasm. This will enable you to make the link to one of our chief homeopathic remedies for suicidal ideation. It’s the image of insidious self-destructive tendencies including wanting to make an early departure from this life.

We want you to know that you’re not alone. We’ve all faced the dark nights of our own soul and that we too had to rely on this system of medicine, that causes no harm. We all deserve to make our way to home to our levity, to bask in our inner light.

Here’s the link to the article on SSRIs

Why ‘Letting Go’ Is The Key Fertility Emotion

Diet isn’t the only possible cause of an acidic pH reading. Your cellular physiology also responds to your state of mind. Chronic disappointment or sadness impregnates your cells with a kind of “grief disease”.

Let’s use one of our chief homeopathic fertility remedies to illustrate. The remedy we often use for chronic grief is called Natrum Muriaticum (Nat-m.). It has a state of mind which cannot “let go.” It can’t let go of the thoughts or emotions of grief, sadness, or “what should have been.”

Physical symptoms may include constipation. This is the body’s way of “holding on” to its past. Chronic sinus infections are another example of the body not letting go. In this case, the accumulation of un-cried tears block the sinuses. Antibiotics will do nothing to release this emotion.

The emotion of Nat-m instinctively seeks to protect itself. “I got hurt in the past, and will never let that happen again.” This personality doesn’t allow anyone to get too close, in the emotional sense. Any emotional bonding or intimacy raises subconscious fears of getting hurt again. A more superficial pattern of social interactions is typical. They “hold their cards close to their chest,” as the expression goes.

We’re portraying the more extreme version of this emotional state. The average case of Nat-m is not this overt. They may have close, intimate relationships, in contradiction to the above definition. Yet, a Nat-m state may still exist at the level of cellular functioning. This creates a state of cellular acidosis. As you know, this goes against the functions of natural fertility.

A miscarriage could be the trigger of a Nat-m state. Or even your general perception of “failure” at not being able to conceive. The telltale signs of monthly blood in your underwear can reinforce this. You only crave to see the plus sign in the glass frame of a pregnancy test. Disappointment and “holding on” may be your natural emotional response.

You may even feel that it is your fault, somehow. You may project that grief onto your own physiology, your parents, or your partner. This means you’ll have a hard time receiving water, nutrition, or even a new life. You may find yourself irritable at this point. To some degree, your worldview becomes colored by this Nat-m state.

There’s an interesting phenomena we’ve observed around this. It illustrates how the idea of “letting go” connects to fertility. You may have heard stories of an ‘infertile’ couple suddenly receiving a surprise pregnancy? This typically happens right after they’ve adopted a baby.

That’s because they have finally “let go” of their attachment. They are no longer attached to conceiving a baby, and open themselves up to new possibilities. This pure act of “letting go” unblocks their fertility function. New hope replaces grief and disappointment.

We’ve seen this identical phenomenon in couples who needed Nat-m in their fertility plan. With the correct, individualized dose and potency, the effect can be dramatic. In all homeopathic healing, the state of mind shifts first. Then the physical symptoms follow suit. Signs of improvement start along with this prescription. Subtle signs of improved sleep, mood, or an overall sense of wellbeing come first. Fertility and conception are usually not far behind.

The mind leads, and the body follows. The mind “lets go”, and the cellular functions return to normal. Proper pH balance returns, and the vaginal mucous creates a fertility friendly environment. The effort you’ve put into a healthy diet finally starts to bear fruit.

Note that ‘positive thinking’ is not enough to reverse such a state. Especially when it has penetrated the cellular functioning. Visualization or meditation cannot “cure” a deeper Nat-m state of mind. Do you feel that you’ve “run out of rope” with diet and lifestyle changes? This idea can breathe new life into your fertility plan. The “state of mind” of your cells is as powerful as a healthy fertility diet.


This topic is further explored in The 8 Steps to Natural Fertility Your Doctor Doesn’t Know About.

You can download your free copy here.

Suicide and Antidepressants (SSRI’s); Rooting Out the Cause From a Homeopathic Perspective











In the Allopathic realm, debate persists on whether some antidepressant drugs (ADs), in particular the Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors (SSRIs), cause the emergence or worsening of suicidal ideation in “vulnerable patients”. Across the globe, ADs, especially SSRIs, are among the most commonly prescribed medications (Stafford, 2001[26]). However, it is still suggested that you use them anyway?!

See this excerpt from PMC, U.S. National Library of Medicine, National Institute of Health as an example:

“The documented efficacy and long-term benefit of antidepressants in patients with recurrent forms of severe anxiety or depressive disorders support their use in those individuals with these disorders, who experience suicidal thoughts or behavior. In general, it is assumed that antidepressants are beneficial for all symptoms of depression, including suicidality. However, some evidence suggests that Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors [SSRIs] may cause worsening of suicidal ideas in vulnerable patients. Systematic reviews and pooled analysis of experimental, observational, and epidemiological studies have investigated the use of SSRIs and their association with suicidality. Taking account of the methodological limitations of these studies, the current evidence fails to provide a clear relationship between their use and risk of suicidality in adults. However, in children and adolescents, there appears to be a bit of increased risk of suicidal ideations and attempts, but not of completed suicides. This risk can be anticipated and managed clinically. Clinicians are, therefore, advised to maintain a close follow-up during the initial treatment periods and remain vigilant of this risk. This advisory, however, should not deter clinicians from the use of effective dosages of antidepressants for a sufficient period of time, in every age group of patients, when clinically needed, and if found suitable otherwise.”

Large amounts of these prescriptions are written by Physicians because of the perception that they are largely safe and effective across a wide variety of common disorders, namely depression and anxiety disorders. Concerns related to safety were initially raised in the early 1990s, with reports that described a possible association with suicidality (Teicher et al., 1990[28]), and from time to time later (Healy, 2004[11]). Although, there are plenty of red flags and news articles citing SSRI’s contributing to violence and suicides, why are they still being administered?!

Justin Karter cites, “The “new generation” antidepressants, SSRIs and SNRIs, appeared in the 1980s but, according to the reviewers, “their adverse effects and clinical trial data have not been fully disclosed.” In 2004, the FDA published a public health advisory warning of worsening depression and suicidality in some patients being treated with antidepressants. In 2007, a Black Box suicide warning was extended from just teenagers and suggested monitoring all patients up to age 24 for anxiety, agitation, panic attacks, hostility, impulsivity, and akathisia.”

Recent findings indicate an increased risk for violent crime in young adults taking antidepressants and a groundbreaking reanalysis of the infamous “Study 329.”  This study reports on the effects of Paxil on teens finding a heightened risk for suicide that was not initially disclosed by the drug companies. Wait, what?!

The authors of this report cite that “genetic variations in metabolism” affect how individuals react to antidepressants and that research indicated that “ultra-rapid metabolizers” may be at an increased risk for changes in behavior. Nowhere, though, do they explain what to do about these “genetic variations in metabolism.”

We know that part of the problem lies in suppressing the symptoms under a drug that doesn’t have the capacity to be curative. In our world, we liken it to putting a bandaid on an elephant’s hiney. Under the suppressive action of the drug is a volcano of content that has not been addressed. Just because the symptoms are suppressed, doesn’t mean the underlying issue has been addressed. It’s an illusion – take the drug away and all the content below the iatrogenesis comes cascading back, sometimes even worse.

In the world of Heilkunst Medicine, we speak to the fact that medicine, all medicine, only has three possible actions; suppressive, palliative or curative. There exists in nature only one law of cure, and that is like cures like. This isn’t because I’ve practice homeopathic law in my clinic everyday for the last 16 years. It’s a primal fact, very much like gravity. You and I are both subject to those laws too, not just some of the time, but every single nano second of the day. The law of cure, also, never takes a day off.

I’ve had quite a bit of experience with suicidal folk in my day. I’ve served teenagers who’ve held my hands in consultation whispering through their racking tears that they no longer want to be here. My own son went through a period for several months playing video games in his bedroom citing that life was devoid of joy and that he was contemplating an exit strategy.

I had my own stomach pumped at the hospital at the age of sixteen from pills I’d taken from the medicine cabinet of a friend’s Mom that landed me in years of ineffective talk therapy, circling around the roots of my abandonment and despair. My own mother committed suicide when I was eight years of age by turning on the car in an enclosed garage. It took me decades of trying to recover until I came to this system of medicine.

When I hear that yet another actor has taken their life, it has a deep impact at the core of my being where I see pencil marks crossing off groups of five incidences and counting. I’m amazed at how often the phenomenon of wanting to die shows up on my patient’s traumatic timelines.

There is another aspect of of this very challenging matrix. First of all, no parent, daughter, son, sibling or clinician alive can convince another person that they want to be here. With my own son, I let him know that I was deeply saddened to hear he was suffering, but that I totally understood if he wanted to leave. I let him know that only he, ultimately could make the choice to be here. Jordan had also suffered vaccine damage and ASD shortly after birth. (Listen to our FREE audiobook for more on this.)

Life is hard, and if it is to be truly lived, it has to be lived on our own primal terms. We’re given life, as a gift from our first breath, however, at some point (or various points) in our life, we have to make the decision to wholly receive that gift.

It must come from the very crux of one’s volition; a free choice, out of the deepest essence of our being. Most folks don’t realize in their depth of their despair, that the full embodied choice to be, beyond the genetic and environmental disease matrix, is a sweetness so profound it is stunning how and why we suffered so prior.

For me, I wished on my birthday candles every year for just a semblance of “Peace.”  At the very least, doesn’t a human being deserve this bit of grace, otherwise, what’s the purpose of observing a sunrise over the horizon of the ocean, or a phosphorescent firefly in the fog, or the kiss of someone you love beyond all measure? Why do we even feel pride when we create something luscious or simply help a friend?

As a Heilkunst Physician, I began my practice with a small plethora of folks suffering a lack of inner value, prone to insidious self-destructive tendencies. Our patients will often bring to us that which we’ve addressed within ourselves. It’s called karma … but the good kind.

Alice Miller writes,

“The truth about our childhood is stored up in our body,

and although we can repress it,

we can never alter it.

Our intellect can be deceived,

our feelings manipulated,

and conceptions confused,

and our body tricked with medication.

But someday our body will present its bill,

for it is as incorruptible as a child,

who, still whole in spirit,

will accept no compromises or excuses,

and it will not stop tormenting us until we stop evading the truth.”

As mentioned above, certain patients are more susceptible, “vulnerable” and require greater compassion, care, and “vigilance” at the onset by the therapist. Unfortunately drugging a person doesn’t ever answer why they suffer “genetic variations in metabolism.” I watched my own grandmother, my mother’s mom, numbed to near vertical catatonia. Her robotic, “Yes, Dear,” never reached her eyes.

So what can be done using the curative principles of Dr. Samuel Hahnemann’s Heilkunst? First, we acknowledge the patient’s state of mind. Then we go after the contributing aspects of nutrition. Often these individuals are suffering a heavy load of parasites and gut bacteria that they’ve been hosting for some time.

Many times there is history of heavy metals and vaccine damage that needs to follow proven protocols of detoxification. You have to know what you’re doing in this realm as each individual is different so you need to stabilize the patient before you start pulling therapeutic lynch pins.

We also secure their medical history with a four page intake form also outlining their family’s history so that we can get a handle on what is coming down their family line of inherited Genetic Miasms. This is like having the keys to that individual’s kingdom with regards to their “genetic variations in metabolism.”

Quite often with these patients, you’ll see a strong, inherited, predisposition to the chronic disease, Syphilis. You’ll see a history of a fear of germs, hyper vigilance, fears, terrors that are much worse at night, growing pains, OCD (did I lock the door, turn off the stove or curling iron?), chronic hand-washing, tendencies to chronic cannabis use, alcoholism, and schizophrenia.

Next, we ask for their emotional and physical timeline. These are the plotted traumas of their past from the present back to their birth illustrating the emotional and physical shocks and traumas sustained during their lifetime. It becomes the spine for Heilkunst treatment enabling us to homeopathically address their accumulated traumas sequentially from the present right back to their vaccines and their birth. That, then, opens the gateway to the the eight Genetic Miasms.

You may be thinking, if someone is suicidal, you can’t waste time addressing their diet and their sequential timeline while they’re acutely suffering in the present. You’re absolutely right. With dropper bottles for Emotional Support (feelings) and Drainage/Detox/Organ Support (physical/metabolic) we will include some of the following remedies to lap away at the state of mind and physical symptoms affecting the patient in the present:


Mind.?Great anguish, restlessness (is constantly changing from place to place), and agitation, with fear of losing the reason, or with excessive internal torment, principally in evening, or in bed at night, as if conscious of having committed some crime.?(Post-partum mania; wants to throw child on fire.).?Inclined to sopor, coma.?Moral dejection, with great listlessness, discouragement, dread of labour, and disgust to life.?Great indifference to everything.?Does not even care to eat.?Apprehensions.?Desire to flee with nightly anxiety and apprehensions.?Ill-humour, disposition to be angry, and to fly into a passion, great susceptibility, humour quarrelsome, mistrustful, and suspicious.?Moroseness and repugnance to conversation.?Groans.?Continuous moaning and groaning.?Excitement, and great moral irritability, with a tendency to be easily frightened.?Bad effects from fright, leaving one in a state of great anxiety and < at night.?Home-sickness with nightly anxiety and perspiration.?Distraction, inadvertence, difficulty of conception.?Entire-unfitness for meditation, and tendency to make mistakes while speaking.?Answers questions slowly.?Weakness of memory; and will-power lost.?Instability of ideas, which constantly drive away each other.?Raving.?Delirium; mental derangement of drunkards.?Intellect weak; imbecile.?Low muttering delirium.?Fits of mania or dementia, with disposition to shed tears.?Hurried and rapid speech.?Loss of consciousness and of speech.?Fury, with dread of liquids. (Source: http://homeoint.org/clarke/m/merc.htm)


Mind.?Humour morose, sad, with despair of cure.?Involuntary tears.?Anguish and anxiety as if one were threatened with some fatal accident, or had committed some crime.?Time passes too slowly; intolerable ennui; an hour seems half a day.?Seeing blood on a knife she has horrid ideas of killing herself, though she abhors the idea.?Apprehensions.?Disposition to be frightened.?Air sorrowful and morose.?Ill-humour, with unfitness for labour.?Disposition to be angry.?Obstinate, and contradictory humour.?Taking everything in bad part.?Humour changeable; at one time bold, at another timid.?Weakness of memory.?Distraction, inadvertence, and incapability of following up an idea.?Absence of ideas.?Blunders in speaking.?Great vivacity of apprehension, alternately with inadvertence, and deprivation of sight and hearing.?Sensation, as if self-consciousness were outside the body. (Source: http://homeoint.org/clarke/a/alm.htm)

Aurum Metallicum:

Mind.?Melancholy, with inquietude and desire to die.?Irresistible impulse to weep.?Longing to see one’s relations, resembling nostalgia.?Imagines he has lost the affection of his friends; this makes him weep.?Sees obstacles everywhere.?Hopeless.?Suicidal; desperate; inclined to jump off heights; to dash himself into a chair.?Sad, feels that all is against her and life is not desirable, and the thought of death alone gives pleasure.?Great anguish, which even induces a disposition to suicide, with cramp-like contractions in the abdomen.?Excessive scruples of conscience.?Despair of oneself, and of others.?Ill-humour and aversion to conversation.?Grumbling, quarrelsome humour.?The least contradiction excites his wrath.?Alternate peevishness and cheerfulness.?Anger and passion.?Alternation of gaiety, or of irritability with melancholy.?Hypochondriacal humour.?Weakness of the intellectual faculties.?Weakness of the memory. (Source: http://homeoint.org/clarke/a/aur.htm)


Mind.?Melancholy, sometimes of a religious character, sadness, care, chagrin, cries and complaints.?Anguish, driving one out of bed at night, and from one place to another in the daytime.?Restlessness.?Great fear of being left alone.?Anger, with anxiety, restlessness and sensation of coldness.?Anxiety, restlessness, and excessive anguish which allows no rest, principally in the evening in bed, or in the morning on waking, and often with trembling, cold sweat, oppression of the chest, difficulty of breathing, and fainting fits.?Anxiety of conscience, as if a crime had been committed.?Inconsolable anguish, with complaints and lamentation.?Hypochondriacal humour, with restlessness and anxiety.?Fear of solitude, of spectres, and of robbers, with desire to hide oneself.?Indecision and changeable humour, which demands this at one time, that at another, and rejects everything after having obtained it.?Despair; he finds no rest, esp. at night, with anguish.?Despondency, despair, weariness of life, inclination to suicide, or excessive fear of death, which is sometimes believed to be very near.?Too great sensibility and scrupulousness of conscience, with gloomy ideas, as if one had offended all the world.?Ill-humour, impatience, vexation, inclination to be angry, repugnance to conversation, inclination to criticise, and great susceptibility.?Caustic and jesting spirit.?Extreme sensibility of all the organs; all noise, conversation, and clear lights are insupportable.?Great apathy and indifference.?Great weakness of memory.?Stupidity and dulness.?Delirium.?Delirium, with great flow of ideas.?Loss of consciousness, and of sensation; dotage; maniacal actions and frenzy.?Madness; loss of mind (from the abuse of alcoholic drinks). (Source: http://www.homeoint.org/clarke/a/ars.htm)

Kali Bromatum:

Mind.?Unconscious of what is occurring around them; cannot recognise, nor be comforted by, their friends.?Memory absolutely destroyed; anæmia; emaciation.?Loss of memory; had to be told the word before he could speak it (amnesic aphasia).?Inability to express oneself.?Writing almost unintelligible from omission of words or parts of words; words repeated or misplaced.?Mentally dull, torpid; perception slow, answers slowly.?Benumbed sensation of brain.?Fearful, apprehensive mood; imagines he cannot pass a certain point.?Drowsiness.?Fears to be alone.?Frightful imaginings at night (in pregnant women during later months), they are under impression that they have committed, or are about to commit, some great crime and cruelty, such as murdering their children or husbands.?Hallucinations of sight and sound, with or without mania, precede brain and paralytic symptoms.?Delirium, with delusions; thinks he is pursued; will be poisoned; is selected for Divine vengeance; that her child is dead, &c.?Delirium tremens, in first or irritative stage; face flushed; eyes red; delirium active; horrid illusions; hard, quick pulse.?Puerperal mania, with fulness of blood-vessels of brain.?Hands constantly busy; all sorts of fearful delusions; walks the room groaning, bemoaning his fate; full of fear; unsteady.?Fits of uncontrollable weeping and profound melancholic delusions.?Feeling of lightness and exhilaration in place of heaviness and depression.?Depressed; low-spirited; has nervous anxiety.?Profound melancholic depression, with religious delusions and feeling of moral deficiency; frequent shedding of tears, low-spirited and childish, giving way to her feelings; profound indifference and almost disgust for life (melancholia).?Profound melancholy from anæmia.?Night terrors of children (not from indigestion), with screaming in sleep, trembling, unconsciousness of what is around them; cannot recognise, nor be comforted by, their friends; sometimes followed by squinting. (Source: http://homeoint.org/clarke/k/kali_bro.htm)


Mind.?Loss of memory (n).?Loses remembrances of passing occurrences, names, dates, &c., while all occurrences previous to inception of disease are remembered as distinctly as ever (n).?Very nervous, weeping without cause.?Cross, irritable, peevish.?Irritable, excited, walking much of the time, does not want to be soothed, violent on being opposed, has tremors, seems on the verge of convulsions, dazed, absent-minded, always washing her hands.?Periodical neuralgia in head (neuralgia).?Very despondent, does not think will ever get better (s.s.).?Terrible dread of night; always < as night approaches; leaves her about daylight, which she prays for (spring cough).?Feeling as if going insane, or about to be paralysed.?A far-away feeling, with apathy and indifference to future.?Crying infants, who begin immediately after birth. (http://homeoint.org/clarke/s/syph.htm)

Bach’s Rescue Remedy:

Rescue Remedy is a combination of five of the original Bach Flower Remedies which are especially beneficial when you find yourself in traumatic situations, such as, stress, emergencies, after getting bad news, before an exam or job interview and all other kind of situations where we suddenly lose balance mentally. The Remedies quickly get us back in our normal balance so that we calmly can deal with any situation

Impatiens: For those who act and think quickly, and have no patience for what they see as the slowness of others. They often prefer to work alone. Teaches empathy and understanding of and patience with others. We’ve found it very fast-acting in alleviating an impatient attitude and lowering stress.

Star of Bethlehem: For trauma and shock, whether experienced recently or in the past. Teaches the ability to recover from traumas and to integrate them into the present life.

Cherry Plum: For those who fear losing control of their thoughts and actions and doing things they know are bad for them or which they consider wrong. Teaches trust in one’s spontaneous wisdom and the courage to follow one’s path.

Rock Rose: For situations in which one experiences panic or terror.

Clematis: For those who find their lives unhappy and withdraw into fantasy worlds. They are ungrounded and indifferent to the details of everyday life. Teaches one to establish a bridge between the physical world and the world of ideas; may foster great creativity. Is also used to bring clarity and alertness to the present moment. (Source: http://www.directlyfromnature.com/Original_Bach_RESCUE_Remedy_s/1814.htm)

Thankfully my adult son is whole, sound, healthy in both mind and body. He’s also loving his life on his own terms. I am beyond proud of him. We’ve both worked really hard to overcome what our parents and grandparents bestowed to us genetically.

While it’s not been easy navigating these disease matrices, it’s been utterly worth it. I’ve totally gotten to know my self and my very gruesome roots. It’s been the scaffolding from which I’ve built my practice, giving back what I’ve learned to others both experientially and through the portal of Heilkunst principles. For me, deciding to stay has been utterly worth it.


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The Cancer Connection – Genetics, Infertility, and You

There’s a close relationship between the factors of infertility, and a predisposition to cancer. We all have cancer cells in our body. It’s a normal part of our physiology.

Your body is in a constant state of recreating itself. Old cells are constantly being replacing by new ones. Your body’s cell factory is busier than Santa’s workshop on December 23rd.

But even in a state of perfect health, some newly created cells are defective. This is to be expected with such high speed production. A healthy immune system disposes of these defective cells immediately.

These cancer cells only become a health problem when chronic stress or illness prevents your immune system from doing its job. Defective cells can start to accumulate. If this trend continues, you cross a biological threshold, and “cancer” is now a pathology. Your inner “PacMan” can’t gobble up the defective cells as fast as they’re being created.

Eat well, get plenty of sleep, minimize toxins – I think we all got this memo on cancer prevention. But perfect diet and lifestyle aren’t enough for cancer prevention. What if there’s an underlying predisposition to cancer in your family tree? What if you’ve been dealt a stacked deck of genetic cards?

This is where cancer meets infertility. The genetic predisposition to cancer also shares many elements with infertility. The big underlying pattern is what we could call “reversal”.  That is, the natural flow of life is reversed, and starts flowing in the wrong direction. In a state of natural health, your life energy flows from the inside out. This is true at both levels – biological and psychological. In cancer and infertility, it’s like the flow is going the wrong way down a one-way street. You can imagine what that would feel like!

“Stress” is part of life, but how we handle it makes the difference. The cancer state of mind tends to internalize stress. It’s a “grin and bear it” attitude. Life energy is flowing more in than out. Sadness, anxiety, or disappointment all get stored up rather than expressed.

This same pattern is mirrored at the cellular level. It disrupts the all-important fertility factor of pH balance. If cancer is in your family tree, pH balance will be an uphill battle for you. Even with a “perfect” diet, your cells will struggle to function naturally.

This pattern goes opposite to natural fertility. While the state of mind internalizes stress, the cells become acidic. Natural flow is from the inside out, but it’s reversed here. The state of mind reinforces the acidic cellular physiology, and vice versa. It’s a vicious circle.

How can you tell if the tendency to cancer is in your family tree? There are subtle signs, beyond an obvious medical history of cancer. Conditions such as chronic fatigue, depression, or anxiety may exist. Trouble with sugar metabolism, diabetes – or even an extreme “sweet tooth” counts.

The underlying state of mind is one of “resignation”. It’s a stance of reacting to external forces, rather than having a self-directed posture in life. A state of over-sensitivity may display physically or emotionally.

These are just hints, but they all illustrate the underlying reversed flow of life energy. Your body does everything it can to reverse this pattern. It chews through a lot of your resources along the way, including procreativity.

This is not a part of cancer we usually hear about. It’s the very early part of the disease which begins with a reversal in some of the most basic life functions.

What’s the importance of this to your fertility plan? It’s to realize that there are non-lifestyle reasons your pH level may seem more acidic than you’d expect. Promise me you won’t reach for strong fertility hormone prescriptions out of panic! Start by restoring your basic life and health functions first.


This topic is further expanded in Step 2 of The 8 Steps to Natural Fertility Your Doctor Doesn’t Know About.

You can download your free copy here.